***Editor's note: I'm sorry I don't write on the proper days. Technically this post is what I call the post for Friday. But being the late person I am I usually post after midnight. This in turn makes my blog put it at Saturday instead of my Friday post. Don't know if that bothered anyone else but I'm glad we cleared that up.*****


I'm wondering how long it's going to take for me to feel the way I feel about my friends here about the people I meet down there. Time is something that isn't on my side. I'm going to be 23 years old and making new friends all over again. It feels like I'm going back to kindergarten and being told to make friends by my mother. "It's okay honey they're going to play nice." But in my situation I have someone to compare my new friends against. And when you've had the best it's hard to beat.

I think your intentions to be friends when you were 5 are completely different than the intentions of those who are my age.
When you are 5 all that matters is that you play in the sandbox together...nicely. At my age the intentions usually are who is willing to actually act like a kid again and get close to that sandbox.

When you are 5 everything is okay and fixed by a hug from your mom. My age most people hate their moms, or don't get a long with them. I however have a wonderful mother who gives pretty darn good hugs that I get along with wonderfully. But in the situation like I'm going through right now, a hug isn't going to fix it.

When you are 5 as long as you are nice and say hi you'll have a best friend right away for life. At my age now if you say hi, something usually is wrong with you. People stay in their pods that they are used to, people outside of the pod is barely noticed. If you are noticed, getting to be in that pod is hard to do...just plan to be on the outside.

What I'm ultimately scared of moving down to North Carolina, is that I am not going to make friends besides my mom. (don't take that the wrong way mom I love you but if I was just your only friend we both know we'd go crazy) I'm afraid the only people I'm going to know are my mom's friends. I'm wondering how I'm going to find people my age to hang out with like the way it is now. I am really really terrified about this and nobody knows....until now, good thing that's out of the bag.