it's coming from my racing mind right now. I am losing my dog possibly and moving out of a house while working 39.50 hours this week. I'm causing my family a bunch of hassle and problems. I love them but they don't deserve this. They don't deserve my screw ups in life, that's my deal my fault my mistakes I have to learn. maybe when you are at your lowest point and feel so alone is where you find out about yourself. I think I'm at that point. I'm finding out about myself when I'm feeling all alone. I don't have anyone to talk to or even listen, it is 1 in the morning. i have to realize that I am not alone, that there are people out there that love me. But it's the realization part that is the hardest.
You have to make room in your heart and in your life for the things that matter. It is not enough to dream. The dreaming comes easy. You have to do things. You have to make choices.
It is the same with loving another person. It is not enough to say you do, or to love them when it's convenient. You have to love them every day. You have to learn their story. You have to never stop learning it. You have to listen. You have to cherish and protect.
Guys, you have to lead. You have to become something trustworthy, someone worth following.
Life is about choices. We become our choices.
It is possible to change.
I'm at an all time low here....
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