Purple...I'll take magenta

"Life is like a box of crayons. Most people are the 8-color boxes, but what you're really looking for are the 64-color boxes with the sharpeners on the back. I fancy myself to be a 64-color box, though I've got a few missing. It's ok though, because I've got some more vibrant colors like periwinkle at my disposal. I have a bit of a problem though in that I can only meet the 8-color boxes. Does anyone else have that problem? I mean there are so many different colors of life, of feeling, of articulation.. so when I meet someone who's an 8-color type.. I'm like, "hey girl, magenta!" and she's like, "oh, you mean purple!" and she goes off on her purple thing, and I'm like, "no - I want magenta!" - John Mayer

So a friend of mine highlighted this quote. It really made me start to think. While trying to over come the idea of everything taken place in the last week and a day now I'm finally feeling ready. I'm ready to face the world head on. It takes one step at at time.

I think I am a 64 box rolling around out there. So what I've got a few broken crayons in my box? Yes and the white one hasn't been touched (we all still wonder what that white one is there for) But I'm happy with those missing few parts. The colors I have now are bright and brilliant. robin's egg blue, come on you can't beat that! I can be challenging but stimulating. I'm here to make life colorful and vibrant. I think that's the only way to live. So I am proud of my sharpener and broken crayons. I'm still far ahead of the game in comparison to the 8-b0xes out there.

I feel as though I am living in world of 8 boxes in my life. I have some 64's out there and I love them to death. But it's those 8 boxes that see the brilliance in what you have that try to break you down and make you feel like you only have those 8 boring colors. They make you focus on the broken crayons not the ones that are still around. It's hard to try to believe in yourself and all the colors you have, even if some of those colors are girlie colors. It's okay, those 8-boxes can have their clubs and exclusive things, but I know where the real party is at. It's in the parking lot where the 64 boxes are hanging out looking at the stars dreaming of what is to come or coming up with amazing solutions to fix the problems right now. In the end it's those dreaming in the parking lot that are going to achieve amazing things. It may look like the 8 boxes are winning right now but know in the end us 64 boxes will accomplish greater things than those 8's. (we do have a lot more crayons out there that are able to be used compared to their 8)

So after things are settling down here in my life, even though they are still in boxes. I realize there is SO much more to get out of life. I'm barely scratching the surface of life at my over 22 and half years of experience. I'm going to have a lot of feeling, loving, fighting, dreaming, and growing left in me. No matter what I think I will look at it with a little bit of magenta....

(thanks for the inspiration and quotes J.T.)