As most of you know, I'm not a runner. I'll be the first to admit that but tonight at 12:30 at night I decided I wanted to go for a run. Yes I know it may not have been the smartest decision I've made but I felt like I just need to let my feelings out on the pavement and run. (I know you all can write to me later about my ill decision to go out late at night by myself in a neighborhood that's not well lit)


As I ran I thought about a lot of things in my life that have been going on. I just let it out and ran.... It was a beautiful night out, I just let the moon and the stars light my way.

I've never had so many emotions run through my mind in the 30 minutes I was out there. I thought about the wonderful friends I have in my life and it made me smile. I prayed tons while I was running be it for me, my friends, or just thanks for the blessings I have in my life. I also cried, I have never ever cried while running, it was weird to do. I cried about things in my life that I have lost; be it a friendship with Nich or my family moving so far away from me. But once I got it out I made a choice to leave it behind on the road I was taking one step at a time and not to look back. I think when people are dealing with hurt and pain in their lives they let it fester. It's like we have this scar that we keep reopening because we don't know what to do without that constant pain in our lives. It takes a conscious decision to let that scar and pain finally heal over and move on and say, "yeah I was hurt but look at me now, I've learned and become a better person because of it." It shows that I'm human just like the rest of the world. sometimes life leaves you with some pretty cool scars that you're able to share with others down the road.

It was a good time to just process this fast paced world that I've been living in to just

b r e a t h e

I love the fact that it's getting colder outside. The hooded sweatshirts and comfort are so nice to bring back to my everyday life. That cool crispness of fall is my favorite time of year, especially with the colors of the trees changing. It means it's the end to something, and someone once said to have an end to something brings a beginning to another, the end is really where we start from. Life is like the open road I kept running on. We can either decide to keep going on a road to a uncertain future that gives hope and opportunity or go back to our comfort zone. I for one would like to think I'm going forward on this road of life.

I think I'll be taking late night runs more often, although my body may not be thanking me for it tomorrow. Maybe it'll just be late night walks.....