"Would you want me when I'm not myself? Wait it out while I am someone else."~John Mayer
I really haven't felt like my self these past couple of days. I don't know why, I'm getting out and doing stuff, I haven't had much homework, I've gotten the right amount of sleep for my body (if not more.) I've been taking my daily vitamins, and feel great...Except mentally. Maybe there is an internal struggle going on in my mind about staying in GB or going to UNC next year for college. Maybe I'm sick of all the dumb drama crap that goes around here, or maybe it's the little things that everyone is doing that is annoying me. I don't know what this is but I really hope I can find this and stop the mental internal struggle my brain is having. It's been so bad that I haven't been able to get to sleep until around 2 and I've never stayed up that late before when I've got 8 am class. I really am just looking forward to the Thanksgiving break that is coming up in less than 2 weeks. It will be much needed.
During my basketball game on tuesday night I rolled/sprained my ankle pretty bad, I took care of it by icing it and taking advil but it still has swollen up pretty bad, and the pain is still there. Well I thought that I'd be okay to play in the volleyball game yesterday night. I was fine moving fine until the last point in the game where I went to get the ball and then a guy on my team wanted the ball and took me out at the ankle. Now I'm in even more pain and I can't see my ankle bone thingie sticking out of my right leg, that's not a good sign. Hopefully the advil and ice will aid in this healing process as well as no b-ball game tonight.
I'm going home for the first time in about a month and a half. I have mixed emotions on this one because I'm missing a lot of stuff that is happening here, but I also feel like I need a break from this place. Seriously this place gets to your head after awhile. I also haven't talked to my mom or seen her in a long time. My dad probably will be there frantically packing the u-haul to get on the road to north Carolina again. I am excited to see my mom and my brothers and my puppy (she's probably not a puppy anymore). I need to enjoy the house that I'm leaving in less than a year as much as I can.
Update and the ass hole I currently refer to as Jared, he hasn't tried to contact me in any way to apologize or even explain himself. I thought this wouldn't be the case, maybe it shows how much he really does want to be my friend. Interesting...
Tonight my favorite show the O.C. is on but I am going to have to tape it because I have a dinner date with my "cousin" Jarek. Jarek is one my good friends back homes cousin that lives here in GB. Well since I was practically family and there for all the get togethers I consider Jarek a cousin, he's a senior and I get to meet the GF and a friend of his. Jacqui who is my age is his sister who I'm good friends with. It'll be nice to catch up with him tonight at b-dubbs. It's also b-dubbs and boneless wings thursday which means I'm a happy camper no matter what. Well I need to get ready and start limping out to my car....
party hard like the rock star you are!
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