I HATE YOU!!!

"The WORST thing about being lied to, is knowing that you are not worth the TRUTH."



"And when did your eyes begin to look fake? I hope you're as happy as you 're pretending. I am alone In my defeat I wish I knew you were safely at home I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have speak, and This bottle of beast is taking me home.
Your hair, it's everywhere. Screaming infidelity And taking its wear."~Dashboard Confessional

"I'm never gonna know, never gonna look back, never gonna know where we would have ended up at. The end has only begun. What you do, no one can decide it's up to you. And who you are is what you choose. These times when the world falls apart makes us who we are."~Lifehouse

"He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought no. He wouldn't even open up the door, he never made me feel like I was special. He really isn't what I'm looking for. He never made me feel like I was special, like I was special, cuz I was special."~Avril Lavinge

"Here I am once again I'm torn into pieces. Can't deny it, can't pretend just thought you were the one, broken up deep inside, but you won't get to see the tears I cry behind these hazel eyes.
I told you everything, opened up and let you in for once in my life."

"I know exactly how you feel you were this close to closing deals when everything fell from out of your hands, you were forced to decide on other plans now. You figured it best to just ignore it otherwise you're only living for it...for the burning burning burning of bridges, burning burning which is nothing more than longing for being uninvolved."~Jason Mraz


This weekend has been the kick in the ass I have needed. I have finally learned the truth about the ass hole of an ex boyfriend I have dated. He is a liar. Yes everyone Jared Kropidlowski is a liar. He lied to me about something that I didn't care about, it is the concept of him lying to me. Fuck you Jared, honestly I was willing to give you a chance and to find out you lied to me while we were dating makes me wonder about everything that you did or said when we were together. Nothing that comes from your mouth is worth my time anymore, I can not trust a word you say. Everything is done between you and me. I will have a very hard time trusting you again. If you wanted to be my friend so bad you wouldn't have lied to me...trust is the basis of any friendship and my trust in you is gone. Our relationship we had obviously wasn't what I thought it was. I just hope you know that you have fucked up one of the best things you ever will have in your life. Was anything you told me ever the truth? Go smoke your pot I don't care but if you're going to do it don't lie to me about it. It just shows to me the kind of balls you have to not even be able to tell someone who you supposively love the truth. I even asked you if you had ever lied to me about things in our relationship and you said you were completely honest with me. So you probably cheated on me, lied to me about what happened in the past, and was completely using me for anything and everything. To me you are nothing but a piece of scum that feeds off of the pond scum. I should have listened to everyone who told me that you were a player and were not to be trusted, I gave you a chance and you knew that. For you to lie to me and blow it all away makes me even more pissed at you. My mother was right when she said something was shady with you and so were the girls who thought something just didn't add up. I hope one day you're lies all catch up to you. Or even better the one who you thought you loved lies to you and screws you over so you feel what I am feeling now. But the best part is, now I have a reason finally to hate you.

Here's the thing we started out friends, it was cool but it was all pretend, since you've been gone. You dedicated you took the time, wasn't long till I called you mine. yeah yeah since you've been gone. And all you'd ever hear me say is how I pictured me with you. That's all you'd ever hear me say...but since you've been gone I can breathe for the first time, I'm so movin on yeah yeah thanks to you now I get what I want...how can I put it you put me on I even fell for that STUPID LOVE SONG yeah yeah since you've been gone.....You had your chance you blew it, out of sight out of mind shut your mouth I just cant take it again and again and again. But since you've been gong I can breathe for the first time. I'm so movin' on yeah yeah thanks to you now I get what I want....
SINCE YOU'VE BEEN GONE!

"What you see's not what you get with you there's just no measurement. No way to tell what's real from what isn't there. You're eyes they sparkle that's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain. You washed away the best of me you don't care.... There's nothing you can say, sorry doesn't cut it babe. Take the hint and walk away. Cause I'm gone, doesn't matter what you do it's what you did that's hurting you. All I needed was the truth now I'm gone. What you see's not what you get..."

everything in the quotes explain my feelings on everything go back and read them they are pretty good...wahoo life is good except for you know who