Brrr....

"Sunday morning, rain is falling..."

I don't think that this campus believes in heat. I am a ice cube sitting here. I was wrapped up in my blanket for a good 2 hours just trying to thaw but nothing was working. It's been raining all day and because it looked like it would freeze I was out on the road around 2 today earliest I think i've left Eau C in awhile. The drive was very long and very boring, but no ice on the roads thank god.

Nobody was here in the apartment of course and I enjoyed my alone time here without them. I finally got my life back, my ipod has a new battery and is all back to normal YAY!! I also made a trip to target and got christmas lights to try to be festive and get in the spirit of the season. The best part was I had a free meal at noodles and went to enjoy it. It's fun to people watch, I definately have become a pro at it being that I've worked at a pool for 3 years and that's all you do. I was sitting next to a couple who were very amazed at the flavor in their pasta. I heard how she hadn't even had chinese but knew how to use chopsticks and was going to prove her significant other (maybe don't know) that she could eat her pasta with it even though it wasn't chinese. Real smart lady everyone walking by you gave you a look like you were a dumb ass. I don't think mac and cheese is in need of chopsticks.

So all my roomies are back and i'm ready to get out of here, that's a bad sign. Jenny will be here on Wednesday, we'll have fun! Something to look forward too....oh yeah and Beckham my beta didn't die, I kind of left him here during the break...oops. He's a fighting fish, not just for fighting other fish but fighting for his life. Yay for beckham the trooper.

off to freeze in my bed for the night

So this is christmas....

"Cuz every worthless word we get more far away and nothings ever promised tomorrow today."~my boyfriend

I recently have conjured up a new boyfriend, wait what am I kidding my self, I've had this boyfriend all along just he's been on the side. Yup I'm officially in love with Adam Levine. He is the love of my life and I can't believe how amazingly sweet he is.

this is where you all need to say WHOA aubs what's your deal??

Yup I just have my major obsession with Adam and I got to see him with Kanye West tonight on SNL, even though the night sucked it made everything better. Hey I've got the perfect deal, I have a boyfriend who is famous and hot who sings me to sleep each night and I don't have to worry about the down fall of all of the boyfriend things, like him lying to me, not calling I know he's busy but he still loves me. Hey we've met and we've already had that instant connection (check out the 3 blogs around April about the best day of my life to catch up) If anything my mom wants me to get the DNA off of the towel and clone my own Adam, wait that'd be even more creepy....

Thanksgiving is over kids, there is less that 30 days till christmas. Good luck trying to find that perfect gift that keeps on giving all the time, it's not out there. Good luck battling the crazies that are there every day trying to find that perfect gift that's not out there. Good luck even seeing Santa at the mall without a screaming kid or two. Good luck finding the perfect christmas tree, it's out there but someone else will get it, not you. Good luck getting jingle bells out of your head at night when you are trying to sleep....oh yeah and Merry Christmas.

No day but today

"525,600 minutes how do you measure a year in a life?"

Tonight was a good night. I needed it. I'm sick of this house and needed to get out. I haven't done much since I've been home and it feels nice. But I also need some activity in my life. So tonight I got to go out with Jenny to catch up. We had a waiter who definately wasn't up to par to my kind of service i'm used to ;) Self proclaimed Van wilder, great to know you're nothing but a slug buddy! But I don't recall van wilder living with a married couple with a baby. He definately thought he was going to get our numbers out of the whole situation but it wasn't happening it was too old and did I mention weird. So after a very weird dinner we went to go see the movie rent. Oh boy was that a good move on our part it was AMAZING definately go see it, loved it and can't wait to get it on DVD when it comes out. It was a good night all in all. tomorrow is my last night being in the Eau C for awhile so Im going out with the only accesory i need, my girls...maybe we can live it up to what we did last time we hit the town. Maybe tomorrow I won't be so lazy and get up before noon...hey i've got the rent cd to rock out to on my drive home on 29. stupid broken Ipod.... Ian is glaring at me kicking me off of my own computer funny how things work. Night all enjoy it, live in the moment don't live for today.

Aubs

Party on!!

"Maybe we just obsess over relationships that feel un-finished."~Carrie Bradshaw SATC

Wow I can't believe how much Sex and the city can relate to any girls life...Being on your own in a big city. This one is going to be short I'm going to the packer game tonight with the girls and we're leaving in less than 20 minutes. I am so excited to go home tomorrow night, i'm ready to get out of this place and r e l a x. I'll definately write more when I'm home in the Eau C because of bored. I'm really looking forward to spending time with my girls, even if we're missing Jackie. But it'll be a change of scenery, it's what i've needed for awhile. I've also got my wonderful dinner date with my mom at my favorite place to see my favorite waiter. but first I have to make it through my stats exam tomorrow. I've got all tomorrow to study, I've got this stuff down anyways. But one more day......mashed potatoes and family and FUN!!!!! Yay for that

Peace out homies

I'm on drugs...

Seriously I'm almost ready for bed and my drugs to take my ankle pain away are kickin' in, so this'll be short

"Or was it just like those promises that you made, on our last night?"~Better than Ezra, Last night

Wow that song couldn't have been any better. I for some reason have had jared on the mind today maybe because Kat is going through the same thing I did a few months back. It made me realize how far I have progressed from then. I definately have moved on from him. The thing is there are questions to answers I haven't gotten, like why all the lies. He said on our last night we were really together that he would be there for me no matter what. He would try to help out and do what he could to make things better. That I would be his best friend (that was a girl) and that he always would have a place in his heart for me. It makes me wonder if those were just lies or if he really meant it. it's been over 2 weeks since I called him and questioned him on the lies. I have yet to hear from him... I still have his shoes and his mug, I think I'm going to have a burning and smashing party for them since he hasn't even tried to contact me. Maybe i should send them home with erica, nawww that'd be too easy. He's gotta work for them. Obviously they weren't that important to him or he would have already tried to get them....It also has helped that I have moved on to bigger and better things in my life than dealing with him, hey I've got my GB bros and the guys here that's enough for me to handle. But there is so much that has happened since I last talked to Jared I bet he'd be suprised and shocked at some of the stuff.....oh well his lost.

Quick note before I fall asleep, I got flowers from my family saying how proud they were of me for doing so well on my physics test, they are super duper pretty and amazing i don't want them to die. They add a nice touch to the bathroom sinks we have outside our bathroom. So thanks fam they're awesome and yeah....

Lost sucks because they really should just let me know how everything plays out, cliff hangers suck!!

Night all remember that no matter what someone else out there has it that much worse....

"Angels fly in the air tonight, saying wasn't it just like swimmin' out on the lake, and stars collide and the airs alive."

Aubs

I remember running through the wet grass...

"Maybe I should drop you at your door or leave tonight and vanish up the shore. Anywhere but here.
It's three 0'clock we're driving in your car, you're screaming out the window at the stars, 'please don't drive me home!'"~At the Stars by Better Than Ezra

"That when you feel the world is crashing
All around your feet
Come running headlong into my arms
Breathless
I'll never judge you
I can only love you
Come now running headlong
Into my arms
Breathless"

Tonight's big music influence on my blog is better than ezra, they are frickin' amazing you really should look into them. not just their new cd before these robots but the old stuff too. Way good...

Wow I have no idea where to start on this one, I really have been thinking about what I am going to write about in here. There is just so much to talk about. Maybe that's why I've been putting it off hoping that it would come out eventually in the right way. This weekend was one of the best weekend trips home that I have had in a long while. This was definately needed in my life being that I'm struggling with a lot on my plate. There was so much that happened this weekend I'm going to break it down into parts and highlights not the whole thing.

Friday~ I get in my car around 9 and drive on 29 west to the good old Eau C. I was dead tired but when I pulled up to my house there was a GIANT U-haul my dad obviously didn't get on the road to North Carolina like planned....he wasn't even close. I took a nap while they packed and then started helping get stuff moved from the house to the u-haul. My friend Sam from GB was visiting and was spending the night. It was soooooo good to see her she definately helped me in some decisions I've been struggling with. We had fun going to wal-mart and getting the most awesome car freshener french vanilla that smells like a yummy cup of cappacino. We get back and crash

Sat~ My dad hasn't gotten any of his clothes packed yet. Sammie leaves me around 9 and leaves her coat which is a definate need for her being she's ALWAYS freezing. My mom makes me wake up to go with her to get her hair done so if there was time I also could get my hair cut. Come to find out all that I got to do was listen to the gossip and paint my toenails what fun! Get back and help get dad on the road. It was actually sad to see him go, I guess it's just the sign of moving and that it is actually happening. I really haven't let it sink in yet. Phase one of the moving is now done next is to move everything out of my home.

Once my dad left my mom said that we had to go to Olive garden. (remember she met a boy that she wanted me to meet and maybe even date, crazy mom) so of course I didn't get ready or have anything cute from GB with me...I got to meet matt a very nice boy we'll see what happens. The girls called me and said that we all were meeting up for dinner after i had already eaten, great. We decide to go to Olive Garden again, and guess who our waiter is...Matt. Could I have looked any more like a stalker, argh just what I needed.

Dinner was awesome It was such a fun time. On the way there Allison told us her metaphor for her relationship with this guy. The neon van and suburban and the strengthening of her garage walls. But in favor of allison she's got what every girl wants....having the perks of a boyfriend without the commitment. We also got to hear matt's life story since my mom told him mine we also got to see his little brother and parents. They were sitting at the table next to us. But there has to be something wrong with him we're not sure what yet because every guy who is hot has to have something wrong with him. I was making fun of the hudson track and soccer feild and how rundown it was and I got the comment from matt, what does it take to please you? interesting... Oh and the girls left Matt my number when I ran to the bathroom after paying, great just what I need, him really thinking i'm a stalker.

We then were waiting for amanda at allisons house where we had to be quiet since the wells' fam was asleep. Here's where someone I believe allie said "everyone use their six inch voices...or maybe make it three inches?" I chimed in with that's the size of a gherkin. This was then the reminder for everyone to be quiet for the rest of the night. Sarah was also admiring her wonderful bejeweled pockets on her jeans and impressed by the watermelons and peaches that allie had aquired.

we also went over to our friends buck and anthony's house where sarah allie and I played spit. And just being the dork I am when drunken amanda said what are you playing is said it was spit on your mom, confused her like that! While driving in the car, sarah decides to whip out her shrimp tortellini that she couldnt finish at dinner.I came to an abrupt stop when the shrimp goes flying out of her little container. flashback: sarah's quickly picking up the shrimp but then casually asks "has anyone seen a shrimp tail anywhere?" (no, we couldnt, but we could smell it definately wasn't mixing well with my new french vanilla air freshener...) sarah opens her legs "oh, here it is!" ( not to mention amanda, being the girl she is, adds in "i always knew your cooter smelled like seafood")

We were ready to call it a night and go to bed when we found out that we could make it into a bar called the Nasty Habit. That describes the bar pretty....nasty. We all showed the bouncer our id's which obviously showed we weren't 21 and he let us in. 4 sober girls and 1 drunk girl walk in no prob. I got to see my first bar fight between these two chicks it was awesome. I had so much fun just dancing the night away. We were having so much fun I think a lot of people thought we were drunk. The gross part was that allison and allie kept getting checked out by this Very old old olllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllld man i'd say mid 60s gray hair and bald, everything. Offered drinks but all were rejected and dancing to big pimpin' and my humps with my girls how great can it get. It was getting time to go since allison had a concert the next day and the smoke was getting to her vocal cords.

So probably the only 4 sober people there walked down water street on a saturday night when sarah makes a comment, "That was so much fun it should be illegal, oh wait it kind of was..." yay for my girls i love them to death.

Sunday~All I did was sleep and do laundry. I got out of the eau c. around 4 and made it home to GB around 7 realizing what a great and awesome time that I had with my girls, wondering if thanksgiving could come any faster...


That's all kids, party on like the rock star that you are, cause for sure I did this last weekend.
A-dizzle


The quotes for everyone from the sat. night of fun!!
What is that just her listing the guys she is planning to have sex with?"

A flashback... Jackie spills her shrimp tortellini all over Aubrey's car. Everyone screams and Jackie dives down trying to pick up the shrimp. Jackie: "You guys there's one missing! Has anyone seen a shrimp tail lying around?" Jackie opens her legs... "Oh there it is!" Amanda: "Jackie I always knew your cooter smelled like seafood!"

"i have a story to tell you..... it's called last weekend..."

"This mix of tortelini and french vanilla is horrible mix of smells.." while we stick our heads out of my car

"Oh my god there is a 50 year old man checking you out"

"We're moving up in the world b-dubbs to olive garden"

"allie you seriously grew some boobs, what the hell happened in Winona?"~Sar

(singing) "don't pull on my hand boy--there's a fucking fiddle... (stops singing) no, theres really a man with a fiddle"~allie

"this could be a problem.. i can't stop rubbing my ass in these pants"

"what does it take to please you?"

"he's so hot i could just...."
".... fuck him?"

"be quiet, we need to use 6 inch voices, or maybe 3 inches"
"that's like a gherkin!"
"shh! can we seriously PLEASE all just use gherkin voices?!"

"don't everyone look at once, but that lady's purse looks like the butt..... of a deer.."

"well, it was like we were driving in a van, but then the van was getting a little too serious, so we had to turn the van around and hop into the neon where we can choose to go how ever fast we want. but right now we're just chillin in the neon parked in the garage, and we're both welcome to get out at anytime" (allison's nicely put metaphor)

"remember the last time we were at the nasty? do you remember what we did after the nasty??"
"yeah, you two did the nasty.."

"wow, so tonight was way too much fun to even be legal... oh wait, it wasnt very legal now was it?"

It's a weird world we live in

"Would you want me when I'm not myself? Wait it out while I am someone else."~John Mayer

I really haven't felt like my self these past couple of days. I don't know why, I'm getting out and doing stuff, I haven't had much homework, I've gotten the right amount of sleep for my body (if not more.) I've been taking my daily vitamins, and feel great...Except mentally. Maybe there is an internal struggle going on in my mind about staying in GB or going to UNC next year for college. Maybe I'm sick of all the dumb drama crap that goes around here, or maybe it's the little things that everyone is doing that is annoying me. I don't know what this is but I really hope I can find this and stop the mental internal struggle my brain is having. It's been so bad that I haven't been able to get to sleep until around 2 and I've never stayed up that late before when I've got 8 am class. I really am just looking forward to the Thanksgiving break that is coming up in less than 2 weeks. It will be much needed.

During my basketball game on tuesday night I rolled/sprained my ankle pretty bad, I took care of it by icing it and taking advil but it still has swollen up pretty bad, and the pain is still there. Well I thought that I'd be okay to play in the volleyball game yesterday night. I was fine moving fine until the last point in the game where I went to get the ball and then a guy on my team wanted the ball and took me out at the ankle. Now I'm in even more pain and I can't see my ankle bone thingie sticking out of my right leg, that's not a good sign. Hopefully the advil and ice will aid in this healing process as well as no b-ball game tonight.

I'm going home for the first time in about a month and a half. I have mixed emotions on this one because I'm missing a lot of stuff that is happening here, but I also feel like I need a break from this place. Seriously this place gets to your head after awhile. I also haven't talked to my mom or seen her in a long time. My dad probably will be there frantically packing the u-haul to get on the road to north Carolina again. I am excited to see my mom and my brothers and my puppy (she's probably not a puppy anymore). I need to enjoy the house that I'm leaving in less than a year as much as I can.

Update and the ass hole I currently refer to as Jared, he hasn't tried to contact me in any way to apologize or even explain himself. I thought this wouldn't be the case, maybe it shows how much he really does want to be my friend. Interesting...

Tonight my favorite show the O.C. is on but I am going to have to tape it because I have a dinner date with my "cousin" Jarek. Jarek is one my good friends back homes cousin that lives here in GB. Well since I was practically family and there for all the get togethers I consider Jarek a cousin, he's a senior and I get to meet the GF and a friend of his. Jacqui who is my age is his sister who I'm good friends with. It'll be nice to catch up with him tonight at b-dubbs. It's also b-dubbs and boneless wings thursday which means I'm a happy camper no matter what. Well I need to get ready and start limping out to my car....

party hard like the rock star you are!

Desiderta

I really don't have much to say, i found this and thought it was a good thing to put in here for the night. Enjoy, it's called Desiderta by Max Ehrmann

Go Placidly
amid the noise and the haste
and remember what peace,
there may be in silence.

As far as possible without surrender
be on
good terms
with all persons.

Speak your truth
quietly and clearly, And listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always
there will be a greater
and lesser person
than yourself.

Enjoy
your achievements
as well
as your plans.

Keep interested
in your own career, however humble;
it is a real poession in the changing
fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your buisness affairs
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what
virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,

and everywhere
life is full
of
heroism.

Be yourself.

Especially do not feign affection
Neither be cynical
about love; for in the fact of all
aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength
of spirit to shield you in sudden
misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with
dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue
and loneliness.

Beyond
a wholesome
discipline
be
gentle
with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the tress and
the stars;
you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt
the universe
is unfolding
as it should.

Therefore,
be at peace
with God, whatever you conceive him to be.
And whatever your labors ans aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery
and broken dreams
it is still a
beautiful world.

Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

I HATE YOU!!!

"The WORST thing about being lied to, is knowing that you are not worth the TRUTH."



"And when did your eyes begin to look fake? I hope you're as happy as you 're pretending. I am alone In my defeat I wish I knew you were safely at home I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have speak, and This bottle of beast is taking me home.
Your hair, it's everywhere. Screaming infidelity And taking its wear."~Dashboard Confessional

"I'm never gonna know, never gonna look back, never gonna know where we would have ended up at. The end has only begun. What you do, no one can decide it's up to you. And who you are is what you choose. These times when the world falls apart makes us who we are."~Lifehouse

"He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought no. He wouldn't even open up the door, he never made me feel like I was special. He really isn't what I'm looking for. He never made me feel like I was special, like I was special, cuz I was special."~Avril Lavinge

"Here I am once again I'm torn into pieces. Can't deny it, can't pretend just thought you were the one, broken up deep inside, but you won't get to see the tears I cry behind these hazel eyes.
I told you everything, opened up and let you in for once in my life."

"I know exactly how you feel you were this close to closing deals when everything fell from out of your hands, you were forced to decide on other plans now. You figured it best to just ignore it otherwise you're only living for it...for the burning burning burning of bridges, burning burning which is nothing more than longing for being uninvolved."~Jason Mraz


This weekend has been the kick in the ass I have needed. I have finally learned the truth about the ass hole of an ex boyfriend I have dated. He is a liar. Yes everyone Jared Kropidlowski is a liar. He lied to me about something that I didn't care about, it is the concept of him lying to me. Fuck you Jared, honestly I was willing to give you a chance and to find out you lied to me while we were dating makes me wonder about everything that you did or said when we were together. Nothing that comes from your mouth is worth my time anymore, I can not trust a word you say. Everything is done between you and me. I will have a very hard time trusting you again. If you wanted to be my friend so bad you wouldn't have lied to me...trust is the basis of any friendship and my trust in you is gone. Our relationship we had obviously wasn't what I thought it was. I just hope you know that you have fucked up one of the best things you ever will have in your life. Was anything you told me ever the truth? Go smoke your pot I don't care but if you're going to do it don't lie to me about it. It just shows to me the kind of balls you have to not even be able to tell someone who you supposively love the truth. I even asked you if you had ever lied to me about things in our relationship and you said you were completely honest with me. So you probably cheated on me, lied to me about what happened in the past, and was completely using me for anything and everything. To me you are nothing but a piece of scum that feeds off of the pond scum. I should have listened to everyone who told me that you were a player and were not to be trusted, I gave you a chance and you knew that. For you to lie to me and blow it all away makes me even more pissed at you. My mother was right when she said something was shady with you and so were the girls who thought something just didn't add up. I hope one day you're lies all catch up to you. Or even better the one who you thought you loved lies to you and screws you over so you feel what I am feeling now. But the best part is, now I have a reason finally to hate you.

Here's the thing we started out friends, it was cool but it was all pretend, since you've been gone. You dedicated you took the time, wasn't long till I called you mine. yeah yeah since you've been gone. And all you'd ever hear me say is how I pictured me with you. That's all you'd ever hear me say...but since you've been gone I can breathe for the first time, I'm so movin on yeah yeah thanks to you now I get what I want...how can I put it you put me on I even fell for that STUPID LOVE SONG yeah yeah since you've been gone.....You had your chance you blew it, out of sight out of mind shut your mouth I just cant take it again and again and again. But since you've been gong I can breathe for the first time. I'm so movin' on yeah yeah thanks to you now I get what I want....
SINCE YOU'VE BEEN GONE!

"What you see's not what you get with you there's just no measurement. No way to tell what's real from what isn't there. You're eyes they sparkle that's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain. You washed away the best of me you don't care.... There's nothing you can say, sorry doesn't cut it babe. Take the hint and walk away. Cause I'm gone, doesn't matter what you do it's what you did that's hurting you. All I needed was the truth now I'm gone. What you see's not what you get..."

everything in the quotes explain my feelings on everything go back and read them they are pretty good...wahoo life is good except for you know who

Wham-bam thank you ma'am

"If anyone ever wondered why you did it, you swear no one would know you sold your soul to the burning, burning of bridges."

I have lost part of myself...My ipod has officially crashed and won't turn on at all. I had to go to best buy and see what they could do for me. After waiting for this dumb lady to figure out if it was under warranty I had to find out my fate, my terrible fate. They had to send it into apple to get it serviced and if it wasn't fixable they would give me a new one. But until then I have to wait 3 weeks to get it back or a new one...I feel lost in the world without my sidekick, it came with me everywhere. Moment of silence and rememberance now...

okay that's done

Tonight I had a very good conversation with a friend of mine, who bejya refers to as abercrombie and fitch boy. She thinks that he could be an abercrombie and fitch model. We were discussing our trips to Cru and how it has become very hypocritical and we weren't big fans of it. Yeah it was a good talk, just because we don't go to cru doesn't mean we're bad people and don't believe in god. It was good to know that I wasn't the only one who had these feelings.

Tomorrow is my second mid term for my physics class and I'm kind of nervous, it's suppose to be the toughest one of the year. I haven't done much studying for it today I've really just been studying for it little by little each day, hopefully it'll help. I also got my test back from my western civ class and got a 88 percent only 4 wrong which was awesome!!! I thought I did pretty bad on that one. I rock!

So this part of the blog tonight is to let everyone know that in a previous blog I was very harsh on a certain roomie of mine and everything is better between us. I'm not sorry for what I said, I was mad and I'm not going to apologize for how I feel. But we are good now after we talked and I realize that I didn't talk about the other 2 people who were making me mad that night either, don't worry dear bejya they'll get their time in here as well.

Friday is fast approaching kids and aubrey is excited!!

Props goes out to the frickin' sweet mother out there in the city of Eau Claire. She's having a rough time suddenly being a single parent from dealing with a broken toilet to making the puppy lily throw up because she ate chocolate. Keep up the rockin' work mom, just think of
when you get a break and we go to olive garden to go see this boy matt ; )

finally tonight is my comment on the new leinenkugels beer apple spice that has been released. I am hoping from what my mother has told me that this stuff is the shit!! I am going out to see and test this experiment truly just for a scientific study, so really it's an academic activity I can't get in trouble for it. Let the experimenting begin!

Desire can cause heart-attacks.....

Damn the snows coming monday

"I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend, The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends, When it all amounts to nothing in the end.
I won't worry my life away."~Jason Mraz

So yeah it's awesome to be here. Life in the land of packers is going super fast. I definately need to comment quick on the fact that October the month has been non-exsistent to me. I also can't believe that it's going to be Wednesday tomorrow. I guess they say that time flies when you're having fun, but homework and dealing with stupid people isn't my definition of fun.

This weekend is going to be the bomb-diggity. Wow bomb diggity i'm going to bring that word back into common use. you wait and see... Lester a friend from last year is coming to say goodbye before he gets sent over to Kuwait. Chad, my roomie's boyfriend and Erica's sweet brother Steve will be up here too. It's going to be a massive party all weekend. I've come to terms with this fact and decided I might as well make it a whole drunken weekend of fun (sorry mom) Hey I haven't been able party it up like this, last time i actually got drunk was beginning of July. It's my turn to be able to do dumb stuff and not have to worry about taking care of people. Also it's not been a good couple of weeks, wait that sounds like i'm trying to drink my sorrows away, definately not the case but I need some fun in my life! So my apologies to all if there are drunked phone calls from me this weekend... last comment for the night on how I feel about things with someone...I saw it on a shirt at abercrombie and fitch this weekend and I liked it

FREEDOM: I'm not with stupid anymore

I like sleep it's just fanfuckintastic!