Road to discovery starts tomorrow.

Tomorrow is going to be a big step for me. I'm going to rediscover myself. I lost it some where at some point. Tomorrow I'm going to sit in front of a counselor and talk about my life, and find out where things went wrong. It's a scary thing, but it is something that I need to do.
I need to discover myself
I need to find out what makes ME happy, what can make myself feel complete, not how to complete others. Find that self confidence and self esteem I haven't had in who knows how long. I need to stop looking for fulfillment by trying to be accepted by others by their standards. I need to be myself instead of trying so hard to fit into the mold of what someone else wants. I deserve amazing things, but believing that is the hard part. I have a lot of learning to do. It isn't going to be easy, but admitting to it and make a step towards change is the hardest part. I'm going to try to blog more about it, be it here or on my tumblr....who knows. I was surfing the web and read this blog and it fits perfectly into what I'm starting on tomorrow.

Ring the Bells-Satellite
Find the words that make it right again

Calling birds help you make it through the night

It's just enough to find a way to open up again

and learn to taste all the beauty that's inside

Well ring the bells that lead you home

cause the only truth I've ever known

is that nothing ever hurts us more than love

so circle up your best of friends

and we'll celebrate the way it ends

At least we live tonight

At least we live tonight

Scream out loud

until you feel again

and hear the sound of how to heal an aching heart

and those that know you most

can help you to live again

so keep them close

as you're making your new start

Well ring the bells that lead you home

cause the only truth I've ever known

is that nothing ever hurts us more than love

so circle up your best of friends

and we'll celebrate the way it ends

At least we live tonight

At least we live tonight

The day you finally turn to dust

and finally hear your name

brings colors that will never fade away

Sometimes the best all of us

can still break down

and still give up on love

but it's never gone