Bumming

This weekend has been one of "those" weekends. It has been a pretty craptacular time. It's getting to the time of the holidays and it's the hardest on me because I won't be with my family. I won't see them on Thanksgiving for the first time in my entire existence, AHHHH. I'll be lucky enough to see them for more than 2 days for Christmas.... I'm also having a tough time with a boy I've been hanging with a lot that is leaving for home soon and pretty much ending our friendship except over the net. Which is cool but sucky not being able to hang out with him. Oh and he's been shady the past couple of days causing me to wonder if the time I've invested in him was really worth it? Who knows.... But as a friend of mine said Thursday night, "it's the really crappy times that help you realize that no matter what you can't feel any worse and it only can get better. Like a hangover, you know you feel crappy now but you also know how awesome you'll feel in 24 hours." I just have to keep reminding myself that there is always a bright side to things. It's just hard when you're in the dark for a long time. Needtobreathe has been on constant playing in my car and headphones....this song has really helped.
Nothing Left To Lose
When my dreams are over
And my feet hit the floor
Is my will enough to move on?
When we fight to get back
The love that we’ve lost
Will my hands be enough to push on?
Tell me will I have enough to go on?

Cause we are alive
We are strong
We can’t watch it go for nothing
Watch until it’s gone
And we are down
But we can choose
We’ve got nothing else to live for
Nothing left to lose

Love is just like a war we can’t win
We can give, we can give, we can give
When we stand in the face of the world falling down
In your hands you hold the pen
What’s your answer for the end?

Cause we are alive
We are strong
We can’t watch it go for nothing
Watch until it’s gone
And we are down
But we can choose
We’ve got nothing else to live for
Nothing left to lose

Oh, Oh, I’ve got nothing left
Nothing left to lose
Oh, Oh, I’ve got nothing left
Nothing left to lose

When there’s nothing that we can’t afford to sacrifice
There’s no way they can put out your fire
There’s no way they can put out my fire

Cause we are alive
We are strong
We can’t watch it go for nothing
Watch until it’s gone
And we are down
But we can choose
We’ve got nothing else to live for
Nothing left to lose

Oh, Oh, I’ve got nothing left
Nothing left to lose
Oh, Oh, I’ve got nothing left
Nothing left to lose