"When I fall in love, I'll take my time, there's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind. You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine."~Jason Mraz
Quick comment on the pic, i saw it somewhere today and it made me laugh, so I thought i'd let you have a laugh too today!
Today has been one interesting day, interesting would be an understatement. Class for stats today was cancelled which left me to sleep in until 10:15. Well because my body likes to play tricks on me and mess with my mind I woke up around 8:30 and couldn't sleep. It was nice to be up and get stuff done but I wanted to stay in bed longer all nice and cuddled up with my blanket. I went to my physics lab with the intention of getting out of there as fast as I could so I could start on my loads of homework. i was then reminded by my lab partner that we were suppose to work together on problems we had on the previous homework. good job aubrey forget all your physics stuff at the apartment. I did what I could and for about 3 hours we went over this with our crazy but super sweet lab instructor Dr. Hencheck. It was 3 hours that I really didn't have time for but i know what I'm doing now. i get back and bejya wants to talk, great just what I wanted and needed right there. After a long and very loud and at points mean conversation we got everything figured out. Sweet one person down 2 more to go....
Well after working on my stats forever I look at the clock and realize that it's already 5. I decided to make dinner for everyone instead of eating frozen pizza for the 500th night in a row. So it took me a few minutes to make the dinner and I worked more on my stats. After we ate. Jamie, Bejya and I had a volleyball game. That game went pretty crappy we went into at 3rd game and lost it at 18-16 rally point scoring. i get back and I here the phone ring, it's Jared....
To be quite honest I was shocked at this call coming from him. After I dropped him off in wausau on sat. afternoon I figured I wouldn't be speaking with him again, at least for awhile. After the concert we went to i got the vibe that I was not liked, this is coming from the guy that has told me repeatedly that he will always love and care for me. I just figured that he realized that I wasn't the girl he fell in love with and stuff wasn't there anymore. It was a weird conversation because it was like a conversation from the summer, long and about everything. We didn't even have conversations like this when he went to college and everything seemed to fall apart between us. I thought I was over all of this, i am i think but maybe there is that 1 percent hope somewhere in my heart that we'll be back together. I know that i'm not going to get the whole i was wrong in my ways and i can't live life without you speech anytime soon if at all. I guess I'll give up on that. Talking to jared made me feel worse for some reason, it made me realize what I had lost and that I might never have that back again. Maybe I just need time away from talking to him, maybe I don't, I don't know what I want. I'm super confused in this whole situation. I just don't get how someone can just turn their feelings of love towards someone off completely in a blink of an eye. I hope there might be something there, but i doubt it. I guess i just have to settle for being friends. But what if i'm not able to be just friends with him???? I guess I'll cross that bridge when I come to it. Argh this is so confusing!!!
It's almost 1 am and I need to go to bed, I love sleep so much!!! But I hate 8 am classes that's what's the killer. Have a wonderful day and remember to always smile, it makes people wonder why you're smiling all the time. G'night
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