Gatorade: Is it in you??

"These days are changing what lies tomorrow we'll never know, tonight lets live forever so we can hold on to these moments."~Forever Jason Fioto

Today was a horrible terrible awful no good day. I want it just to be over but I know that things that occured today will lead into the following days if not weeks. Recently I have been completely ignored by some certain people, people I share an apartment with. The whole weekend when I was here I was ignored. All I did was lay in my room, not once was I included in anything that they were doing. If they did try to include me it was after the fact of it occuring. After watching a show for awhile and I walk into the living room and they're like "Hey we're watching friends if you want to join us." Makes me say hey how about no you could have asked me first. Maybe it's because these two roomies of mine seem to be very self involved recently. I understand that we all have our times to be self involved and only think about ourselves but don't you feel bad not caring about another person sometimes? Normally I wouldn't stand for this crap but I have had a lot on my mind recently with family issues. So right now I'm going to just sit here and type hardly to vent my anger.

I am sick of a person being the victim in everything. I have many reasons to sit here and act like the victim of things, but do I? NO! I'm sorry but you now have someone in your life and you can't say that nobody will ever care for you. That you just want that touch of some guy, well you've got it and we've all noticed. We've all noticed how you get up early now and love the attention of straightening your hair gets you. The whole being alone on the weekends isn't getting you any where any more. So what?!? I spent the whole weekend ignored in the apartment i think that's a little worse. Yeah so what if your roomie has a boyfriend and you don't see her as much and you miss her. Oh you miss her what about the two other girls in the room next to you that you pretty much ignore all the time. All this is, is someone being very hypocritical and being very shady. I don't even know if I can trust this person like I used to. Maybe it's time for me to move on to the worth while relationships in my life. Maybe the two roomies can be together forever and let the two of us do our own thing.

Thank god I have Jamie here, if I didn't have Jamie as a roomate I think i would really go and kill someone. She is the reason that I haven't just left here. She talks to me and helps me out and I am very greatful to have her with me in my life. She realizes that these things are going down as well. I am able to vent to her about things that would make other people really mad about. This is going to suck when she's gone on Thursday, I'm going to have to fend for myself.

I recently have come into a batch of bad luck, well not bad luck, people being ignorant and not caring for others well being. Yesterday I was near our very heavy and thick door putting on my shoes. There was a crack in the door and one of my roomies comes flying in slamming the door right into me. I swear to god it was going like 40 mph. It hit me in my shoulder and in my head. It was such an intense pain I didn't know what to do. So I just stood there and left. Not once since the incident has she mentioned or asked how I have been feeling. I have had a horrible headache all day, a bump on my head that hurts when anything touches it, my arm is tingly at times and my shoulder hurts when my backpack strap rests on it, but she doesn't ask so she doesn't care. There are boys around here that live across the apartment complex, they're a crazy bunch. At times it's fun and hilarious but at others it is annoying and really pisses me off. tonight was the pissed off nights. I was in my room doing nothing and I start getting harassed i told them to stop. They did for awhile but then when I came to answer the door when they were constantly knocking it, they I mean he opens it and I told him to leave. He wouldn't and grabs me and throws me on the couch my head hit the arm and my neck snapped back and there was a very loud crack. Whiplash and very intense pain, what fun!! It must have been this hilarious thing because bejya erica and putz thought it was awesome, pretty sure I didn't need this crap tonight. I didn't do anything to them at all tonight and look who gets hurt. That's right me. It took Bejya five minutes to come and see if I was okay and i yelled at her and nobody has checked on my yet. What nice friends I have!!!!

What it boils down to is that everyone is pissing me off except for my mom jamie and crumper. So sorry but you probably are pissing me off currently too. Tomorrow is a new day and it sure as hell can't get any worse so it must be better.