A wise man once said to end something you create a new beginning. So really the end is the beginning. I have been ending things in my life right now so I have somewhere to start from. It is that time to move on from a part of my life into something unknown. I am off to college. Being that I am the oldest I have no idea what to expect from it. I have no prior knowledge for things I need to do or prepare for. I have been trying to put an end to friendships I have had for 4 or more years. That's really hard for me to do. I am not one to be very good at goodbyes. I know there will be next summer to see them if I want to but we all will have created a new life for us. A new life that I may not be a part of anymore or even them being a part of mine. I know there will be the people at work who I will see next year, but there are those who won't be returning. So really this is my beginning of a new life (and blog) into the relm of college. I am on my way to University of Wisconsin Green Bay where I will be a Fighting Phoenix. I finally have gotten in contact with my room mate. I know for a fact that ending my life of living in my house where I am right now will be extremely hard. Not waking up to the mass destruction done by my little brothers or the smell of coffee that my mom is making. I won't be waking up seeing my family everyday. As much as I barely can stand them at times I really do love them and will miss them. I am going to be on my own now, nobody to help or support me. I won't have that safety net I have had the past 18 years of my life. It's like I have been riding around on a bike with training wheels for my whole life. Now my training wheels are off and I don't have anyone around to help me start off. I guess it's that intial shock of having nothing there. Eventually I will get used to it and learn to bike like I did before. Weird analogy but it worked for me. So right now I am going off to enjoy those training wheels of mine while I can before they are taken away from me.
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