The power of ONE

"Cause these are the days worth livin', these are the years worth givin', cause these are the moments these are the times, these are the best days of our lives."~The Calling.

A lot of people like to say that change is good. I might be one of those people on certain things, but this thing about leaving is not one of them. I would love to stay here and be that little kid in high school staying at home under the comfort of my parents. Maybe it's because I have always acted older than I really have been. I have been told I am very mature for my age(even though at times I really don't act it: ) I have had all the freedoms of living on my own while being under the care of my parents. I am really going to miss my little brothers and mom and dad. Have you ever heard the saying you don't miss something until you lose it. Well I have been noticing that over the last week I am spending here. The budget buck nights on tuesdays, tcby waffle cone Wednesdays, and even buffalo wild wings. While driving down town passed Owen park I noticed this fountain. A fountain that I had seen before but never really paid attention to. Well that night I was at night that I saw it and really thought how I am going to miss Eau Claire. It was that fountain that made me think of all the places we take for granted here in E.C. I think in the end it is going to be the little things that I am going to miss. The hugs from my friends, the good night kisses from my little brother, the random t.p.ing nights, the sounds of the washer and dryer even if it's right next to my bedroom, all those things you normally wouldn't notice till they are gone. I'm done to one more day and night left in Eau Claire before I head off to college. It's finally setting it that I am growing up. "I don't want to grow up....I'm a toys-r-us kid." I just don't want to grow up forget the toys-r-us thing. I'm off to notice and enjoy the little things I am going to miss. Have a great one!!

Single Digits

"I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly. I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky. I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change and breakaway out of the darkness and into the sun but I won't forget the ones that I loved." ~Kelly Clarkson


So it is offical we are down to 9 days until I leave for Green Bay. I just want to scream...AHHHH!!! I am so stressed out. Tonight was the last waffle cone wednesday with Allie because she leaves on Tuesday morning. I don' t think any of us wanted to think that next week we will be missing part of the group till next summer. Later that night Josh Huttel and his friends showed up to go T.P.ing for one last time before I left. It made me think, I'm not going to get to do this when I'm in college. It's such a high school thing to do, I'm going to be using the tp not wasting it on trees. Who is going to have a house to do anyways. It was a bittersweet moment. Realizing that this might be the last time I am going to get to do this for the rest of my life. I had to enjoy the moment while it lasted. Tonight I got to see Josh which was nice because I hadn't seen him all summer. I think I'll be hanging out with him more before I leave. He said he'd stop by tomorrow afternoon to see if we could get together that night. Lauren and I tonight were discussing how stressed this next 2-3 weeks is going to be on all of us. I found out that one of my friends, Sebek, has already left for college. I didn't even get to say good bye. I know that this is going to be a new and exciting part of my life. But I'm not sure that I want it to be coming up sooo soon. I'm not going to be able to say goodbye to some of my friends knowing I might not see them again. Everything is going to change when we all are in our diffrent places. Recently the girl who I am kind of friends with is being kind of a bitch and Im not looking forward to dealing with her. She's been hanging out with another girl who is a complete whore and I can't stand because she has screwed so many of my friends over. So I'm just kind of going to do my own thing at Green Bay...I think that'll be better anyways. But I need to watch the olympics have a great night everyone!!!

The Beginning

A wise man once said to end something you create a new beginning. So really the end is the beginning. I have been ending things in my life right now so I have somewhere to start from. It is that time to move on from a part of my life into something unknown. I am off to college. Being that I am the oldest I have no idea what to expect from it. I have no prior knowledge for things I need to do or prepare for. I have been trying to put an end to friendships I have had for 4 or more years. That's really hard for me to do. I am not one to be very good at goodbyes. I know there will be next summer to see them if I want to but we all will have created a new life for us. A new life that I may not be a part of anymore or even them being a part of mine. I know there will be the people at work who I will see next year, but there are those who won't be returning. So really this is my beginning of a new life (and blog) into the relm of college. I am on my way to University of Wisconsin Green Bay where I will be a Fighting Phoenix. I finally have gotten in contact with my room mate. I know for a fact that ending my life of living in my house where I am right now will be extremely hard. Not waking up to the mass destruction done by my little brothers or the smell of coffee that my mom is making. I won't be waking up seeing my family everyday. As much as I barely can stand them at times I really do love them and will miss them. I am going to be on my own now, nobody to help or support me. I won't have that safety net I have had the past 18 years of my life. It's like I have been riding around on a bike with training wheels for my whole life. Now my training wheels are off and I don't have anyone around to help me start off. I guess it's that intial shock of having nothing there. Eventually I will get used to it and learn to bike like I did before. Weird analogy but it worked for me. So right now I am going off to enjoy those training wheels of mine while I can before they are taken away from me.