King of Anything??

So many things I'd say if only I were able but I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by...

Hi My name is ___________and I am a complete and total douche bag. I'm super disappointed in ____. Thought he was a cool dude but when it comes between getting into someone's pants and being your friend, he's going to chose getting in someone's pants. To quote them "and unless the end goal is sexy...i just don't care." I WANT TO SCREAM AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS WHAT A D-BAG THIS PERSON IS!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I'm not the one who's lost with no direction, but you won't ever see. You're so busy makin' maps
with my name on them in all caps. You got the talkin' down just not the listening. And who cares if you disagree, you are not me. Who made you king of anything??

Another one bites the dust.

You know, they say matter could be neither created nor destroyed. But I feel like there’s been this new matter of this fake fucking hate that doesn’t actually exist, except in the people who feel it. So there’s all this negative energy going around and it’s not real. You wouldn’t actually get it if you stood face to face with somebody. You could read about it on your MySpace page. You can hear that it’s out there somewhere. But when you actually go face to face it’s not there because we’re having split personalities now. We have like a internet personality and our loving selves personality. And I just want to tell the internet to go fuck itself because I’m in front of a whole bunch of people who are sending me real love and that’s all that matters. I can’t deal with that much of a multiple people in my life, I can just deal with the people in front of me who are sending me love. In your own way just deal with the love in front of you, don’t deal with that world outside of ether, cause it doesn’t exist. There are people losing sleep over what they think is hate and the person that wrote that shitty little comment on the internet isn’t thinking about it anymore. So just go on the assumption that you’re awesome….

you think that I’ve offended you, well then come on up to me face to face and I’ll give you a high five and a hug. Cause I got an analog heart. This shit don’t have USB, it’s just me. I can’t hook up to 3G, I just got to let it be. You know what I’m saying? It’s a little abstract, I will admit, but my point is, just spend all your time on love, just spend your time on this, just love more. When in doubt, shut your eyes and love. I promise it works, I’ve been trying it for a little while. It’s an awesome little thing to do.

Life update

I've been MIA from the blog scene for a few days

I've had a severe ear ache on Friday of last week so I went to the doctor. They said it was swimmer's ear (I haven't been to a pool in more than 3 weeks) gave me drops and let me go on my painful merry way. Well the drops haven't done anything, I've got a right ear that feels like it's exploding inside, and nothing is helping with the pain. So I have spent the majority of my time stuck in bed resting as much as possible. (Netflix is my best friend and I've already made it through a season and a half of veronica mars....great show)

Today I tried to venture out into the world and act normal on my day off. I went with my mom on a spoon hunt. I'm going to attempt and eventually succeed at making spoon rings. I found a bunch of cool ones, and one that fits perfectly for a friend of mine in Colorado : ) I came home and hit the wall. I guess my body is still saying stop what you are doing and rest.....you need to feel better instead of pushing it. The worst part of all of this is that going into work is making it worse, but calling out is not an option. So for now I'm going to take my twice daily ear drops, pain killers, and pray that my ear gets better by this Friday or another trip to the doctor it is for me.

So trying to lay low for awhile, if anyone wants to join me in my bed to watch a movie feel free, it's not like I'm going anywhere or contagious. I just want to feel better...positive thoughts and love a much appreciated.

Figured it was fitting....

No words, My tears won't make any room for more,
And it don't hurt, like anything I've ever felt before, this is
No broken heart,
No familiar scars,
This territory goes uncharted...

Just me, in a room sunk down in a house in a town, and I
Don't breathe, no I never meant to let it get away from me
Now, too much to hold, everybody wants has to get their hands on gold,
And I want uncharted.
Stuck under the ceiling I made, I can't help but feeling...

I'm going down,
Follow if you want, I won't just hang around,
Like you'll show me where to go,
I'm already out, foolproof idea, so don't ask me how
To get started, it's all uncharted...


Each day, countin' up the minutes, till I get alone, 'cause I can't stay
In the middle of it all, it's nobody's fault, but I'm
So lonely, Never knew how much I didn't know,
Oh, everything is uncharted.
I know I'm getting nowhere, when I only sit and stare like...

I'm going down,
Follow if you want, I won't just hang around,
Like you'll show me where to go,
I'm already out, of foolproof idea, so don't ask me how
To get started, it's all uncharted.

Jump start my kaleidoscope heart,
Love to watch the colors fade,
They may not make sense,
But they sure as hell made me.

I won't go as a passenger, no
Waiting for the road to be laid
Though I may be going down,
I'm taking flame over burning out

Compare, where you are to where you want to be, and you'll get nowhere

I'm going down,
Follow if you want, I won't just hang around,
Like you'll show me where to go,
I'm already out, foolproof idea, so don't ask me how

I'm going down,
Follow if you want, I won't just hang around,
Like you'll show me where to go,
I'm already out, foolproof idea, so don't ask me how

To get started, it's all uncharted...

Just Love

There is so much running through my mind.....my brain is going crazy, but I'm going to get it all figured out and into a blog later. It's late and I've got an appointment with my bud tomorrow. A very taxing and draining day was finished with a very amazing and up lifting conversation with an AMAZING friend. More to come from that in a future blog.

But what our conversation came down to tonight, is that people need to look outside of their bubble and recognize the beauty (even the little things, like a patch of green grass) all around us. You have to love people where they are at in life, not where you want them to be. Love is a powerful thing and just loving on people will impact their lives and your life in more ways than you can everrrrrrrrr imagine.

So just love....slow down and love others because it's a huge thing that people forget to do. Even if it's loving the shades they are wearing, or smile they have on their face. Just L-O-V-E love. Hugs also make everything better too.

Blame A Boy With a Guitar Playing at the Red Rocks

So I had it all set up ready to rock. Ready to blog, but I saw that John Mayer was broadcasting live from the red rocks tonight.....I got sucked in. So as I type I'm split screening watching him play at the red rocks and writing this blog. How's that for multi-tasking!!!

"Deal with the love that is in front of you, don't worry about the hate from outside sources. Just focus on the love, the love right face to face with you. When in doubt shut your eyes and love."-Words to live by spoken right now from the mouth of a creative genius John Mayer

I was thinking tonight that I would love to work for a musician and go on the road with them on tour. Or even be involved through the record label or management company. So I did a little searching....it's hard to get in to. (Dang) You really have to know someone and just fall into the job to tour with an artist or band. I guess I can dream or come up with a solution to my idea. I think it's something I would have a blast at, hanging around music all day and helping others enjoy the awesome music in person, live themselves. Everyone remembers their first concert they went to, how cool would it be to say you were a part of that???

To add to the list of self discovery: find a way into the music industry to help others experience the amazingness that music brings into their lives like it has mine.

Being that I'm on a music kick I figured I'd share some pictures from the M5 show and John Mayer concerts of awesomeness....enjoy and let me know what you think!