My rant for the night.

By the demands of my faithful follower (my mom) she wanted me to keep on writing. Well to be honest the beginning of the new year started with me in bed early. I was stood up by a stupid boy who was stupid in leading me on. I guess it's another reason why i should be very very very VERY careful with who I develop feelings for. I didn't even really have much feelings like the butterflies or anything but what bothers me is I fell into the trap. The trap of deception that "hey he could be okay" and fell for the words that he said. BUT again my better judgement I went with it, and look where it got me now. Hating boys and wishing that it would all just go away. I'm lonely I hate it and I don't know how to make it better. To think of it this way (mom) my last real relationship was with Johnny, the crazy almost 4 years ago. It makes me feel like I'm broken and not worth the time for a relationship, even with a friggin' NERD! Damaged goods called Aubrey, might as well stay away from those who are broken. My friends are not here and the ones I have here are no where close to the ones I left. I miss them terribly. WHERE HAVE ALL THE GOOD PEOPLE GONE??