Sink Or Swim

So it's been awhile and long awaited by the one person who actually reads my blog. An actual in depth blog.....so here it goes.

I recently haven't had much of inspiration for me to write anything meaningful, but tonight something finally popped up in my life that made me want to write.

Why is it that some people who we love and trust the most are the ones that hurt us that much more? It's the people in our lives that you would go to bat for no matter what, that turn around and start hitting you with that same bat. It's like they have all the tools to push every button and they push those buttons just because they can. That's not being a friend AT ALL. I recently dealt with a friend of mine that liked to push every button I had to get me angry. I've finally just let him go out of my life and moved on. Did it suck at the beginning, yup. Do I miss him now, not really. Do I feel like I'm in a better place in my life now, definitely. We don't need those button pushers in our lives, it's a waste of valuable time that you could be using on something else more important.

I have had a friend of mine who has been going through hell and I wish that I could do something about it. But the thing is, there isn't much that I could do or say to make it better. Other than me being there in person and getting her away from the entire situation for a bit, and of course lots of cuddling while watching TV. It's really only going to be time and comfort in me just being there that would help. I of all people hate hearing that time heals all wounds. This is so true but those impatient people out there, like me don't like that. But I got off topic.

The people that we let inside the walls of our heart are there for a reason. I think some people forget why we've let them into that special place in our lives. We should remind those people why we love and care for them. It serves more than one purpose, it makes the ones you love feel amazing and even yourself because you are being generous with your love. It's a real bitch though when the people you thought you knew turn out to be someone in a costume hiding their true self. Getting past the loss of the person who you thought they were is really hard. You want to fight to make it the way the person use to be, but you can't. It's always something big that causes us to look back and see where we should be thankful for those who we have now in our lives.

So it comes down to this. I am really thankful for those friends out there that look out for me...you know who you are. You should be just as thankful for the friends you have in your life doing the same. I'll leave you with this amazing quote from a great movie. I find it fitting

"you can be as mad as an angry dog at the way things went. you can swear and curse the fates...but when it comes to the end, you have to let go..."