I hit my head on something and it hurts really bad. It's gotten to be a pretty big bump....oh no!

my body has been through a war and I'm burned out from working at best buy.....

2 am was my wake up and when I woke up my brothers were still up playing video games. CRAZY. Worked and did my supervisors job all morning. CRAZY. Having 3 monster energy drinks and a 5 hour energy shot. CRAZY Being sore all over CRAZY. Wanting to crawl into bed and never come out CRAZY. Having to go back there for another round tomorrow CRAZY. Over all a very crazy day....

So I woke up today at 12 pm to screaming kids out in the park after going to bed around 6 am. I got up saw the packers to play on tv down here and fell asslep during the second half. I woke up by my family to come and eat thanksgiving dinner. I am now in bed going back to sleep to wake up by 2:45 am to get ready and go to Best Buy again for the day from HELL!! ahhh I'm going to need a giant massage after these days are done.

It is now 530 in the morning and I just got done with work at best buy. I was supposed to leave at 10:45 pm and labor is bad. Oops!!! bed time to wake up in less than 24 hours to be right back there.

So I just wrote a long long email to a boy who is being stupid to my best friend. So I'm exhausted from writing and can't think of anything fun to write about. Just know that my job has been nothing but stress today and tomorrow I'm probably going to freak out on someone tomorrow because of this HORRIBLE planning. Just know Jess I'm going to fight for you no matter what, love you lots and YOU will make it through this. YOU are not someone that a person can just get over in a minute, hour, day, month or year.....LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU!!!!

i'm addicted to borderlands the game. It's so much fun and I don't have enough time in my life to play it....

I like lazy days where I don't have to do anything. It is so stress free and unlike my normal stress filled work days. I'm off to pick up Ian tomorrow at NCSU which will be the first time I will be able to see the place. Hopefully he'll be nice unlike tonight on the phone. Man I'm tired and I'm off to bed.

So I'm probably going to get punched, stabbed, or shot the day after thanksgiving. It's going to be really bad and hopefully I can make it through this next week...argh I'm frustrated.

crazy crazy day from working, cops being called on us at a nail salon, to my dad being in the hospital for surgery. i'm exhausted and tired and want to sleep forever. Is that okay?

I passed out before I could blog I'm sorry.....big day today I'll be writing more later tonight.

I'm too tired to blog and have a lot to do on my day off.

today was a good day. I got what I wanted done. I woke up and got on my way to making the day a great day. So my mom and dad were out of town so I was just me in the giant house and I didn't want it to be that way so I left the house and got out. I went to Best Buy to buy the album from John Mayer and from OneRepublic. Both are amazing. I've had the Battle Studies album from John Mayer for a week and love it. I've only had my hands on the Wake Up from OneRepublic for less than 24 hours and I already love it. It's so good, and they happen to mention their fans in the liner notes unlike Mr. Mayer. I also purchased a game that I've been waiting to come out forever! I then went and started to be prepared for my 3rd annual sending of Christmas cheer to everyone I love. I actually found some really cool stuff that I hope everyone loves. I'm going to start early on this so it makes it to everyone in time. When is too early to send Christmas cheer in the mail? I then went and hung out with my little bro we got the homework done right away after school and I let him play the new game. My buddy Rachel came over for dinner and it was good to catch up with her. I also got to talk to my love back in GB also known as my best friend Jess. I hope everything turns out okay dear! I'm sure it will. But I'm tired and had a busy day. Tomorrow is another work day....booo. Night all love you!

Man do I miss my old store in GB. Things went so perfectly. Here not so much. I have a feeling there is going to be a major shake up and it's not going to be good for a lot of people. But might bring new light to a store that desperately needs it!

Weather

So I miss the cold weather already. It's kind of sad that I'm able to walk to my car in the middle of November with just my t-shirt and jeans. I want my warm hoodies, poofy vest, scarf, and nice warm ski hat. But i don't think those things will be busted out anytime soon. I remember last black Friday freezing my butt off scraping the ice off of my window, just to get into work. Then getting there with my mittens and hot chocolate freezing our butts off in the install bay for the team huddle. I don't think that's something I'm going to encounter this year. Unless there is a freak weather system that comes through. I think since I haven't seen frost yet here in the city that I'm not in the Christmas mood. It just feels like a normal September or October day....not less than a month and a half away from Christmas. I think my cure would be SNOW!!!!! Maybe I'll make it happen some how. Pray to God that we get snow so I can play in it and feel like it's Christmas. Blow up snowmen on grass just don't do it for me and my holiday cheer. Maybe once I start my annual tradition of Christmas cards it'll maybe help with my holiday cheer for the year. Tuesday will be the review of John Mayer's new album. I've had my hands on it for about a week and let me tell you...it's GREAT and completely different from anything else he's recorded. But that's for Tuesday.

Hope you all had a wonderful Sunday and life is treating you well.

another evening that I come home exhausted and have to turn around and open tomorrow. Time to fall back asleep....

My goodness how fast this month has already flown by. I can't believe that the most dreaded day of the year for retail is coming up fast. Don't get me wrong it goes by super fast and I get as many energy drinks I want that day. BUT I does mean I have to go to bed super early and make my own coffee because Starbucks isn't open at 3 am. It also means that I have to be out of the store at midnight on Wednesday night no later. So setting up and being prepared is going to be huge. The whole computer department is going to be CRAZY. I should start working on folders already but then again I've got other stuff to do. I haven't seen my lil' bro Connor at work in over a week and it makes me sad. He sent me a text message saying he missed me and he's sad we haven't worked together. That's the down side of having your full timers only work their minimum 32 hours a week and having your labor be absolute crap. I closed the department after 9 tonight by myself I didn't get out of there until 10:45. (we closed at 10) This was not fun. It's only going to get worse I get to close every freakin' night next week except my two days off and Sunday. I am starting to HATE closing......argh. Oh well at least we're getting our stuff together. If only we could get some good guys or gals into our department that know their stuff. It seems like our managers have a tool gauge and anyone who is a giant loser gets the job. It's the smart ones that get lost through the cracks sadly. This store is crazy bad......if only I could become manager! Time to sleep I work 11:30 to 8 tomorrow....it's going to be a very long and stressful day.

I am going back to the real world tomorrow with having to work. My three days off was great but doesn't help pay for things. I'm super tired. I passed out watching tv at 930 tonight and now I'm going back to sleep now. I'm sorry this isn't more exciting but that's the deal for now. Sweet dreams all.

I'm way too tired to write or think. Other than the fact that I am SICK OF IT RAINING HERE!!!!

GREAT AMAZING AWESOME SHOW!! It felt like it was only 20 of us there that was at the show cause of the pit we got to be in. So great I loved it. We even had the chance to hear the sound check and talk to Shawn. I'm super tired and probably don't have a voice tomorrow but it was so worth it. Oh I got a pic from Adam and the set list from Mickey. Too bad the old 40 year old ladies above the pit wanted them. They also were planning on killing me if they wouldn't have gotten drum sticks thrown to them at the end of the show. HAHAHA night world

So it's crazy tomorrow night I'll be back with the guys I absolutely love. *YAY YAY YAY* Those guys would be Maroon 5. I'm going to Virginia Tech which is going to be very interesting to see where the worlds worst school shooting occurred. It was such a sad thing that happened that horrible day and to step foot where it happened is kind of scary. But I am so excited to see them play and hear the new stuff that is going to be on the album next year. oh and even more awesomeness to my 3 days off John Mayer's new album already leaked onto the interwebs and guess what I've got it and I'm playing it....let me say it is AMAZINGLY AWESOME!!!

What if this storm ends and I don't see you

I worked from 7am to 6 pm tonight and I am mentally and physically wiped. On Tuesday I will be able to see my future husband and his band play which makes me super duper excited. I've got 3 days off in a row and this girl is PUMPED!!! Not much to write tonight other than certain people can't handle the truth because of how raw and honest it is. These people need to grow up and deal with it. Oh and I made an invite for my one and only gift I want for my birthday. My friends from back home to come and visit me. I really hope I'll be able to see some of them : )

I have to be to work by 645 am tomorrow to work until 545 pm. I'm going to shoot myself this whole thing is crazy!! I'm so ready for my vacation on tuesday.

I think I forgot to blog yesterday i'm not sure though. Oh well. The next 48 hours are going to be very busy lots and lots of work and hopefully lots of sleep so I'm not going to crash.

Sink Or Swim

So it's been awhile and long awaited by the one person who actually reads my blog. An actual in depth blog.....so here it goes.

I recently haven't had much of inspiration for me to write anything meaningful, but tonight something finally popped up in my life that made me want to write.

Why is it that some people who we love and trust the most are the ones that hurt us that much more? It's the people in our lives that you would go to bat for no matter what, that turn around and start hitting you with that same bat. It's like they have all the tools to push every button and they push those buttons just because they can. That's not being a friend AT ALL. I recently dealt with a friend of mine that liked to push every button I had to get me angry. I've finally just let him go out of my life and moved on. Did it suck at the beginning, yup. Do I miss him now, not really. Do I feel like I'm in a better place in my life now, definitely. We don't need those button pushers in our lives, it's a waste of valuable time that you could be using on something else more important.

I have had a friend of mine who has been going through hell and I wish that I could do something about it. But the thing is, there isn't much that I could do or say to make it better. Other than me being there in person and getting her away from the entire situation for a bit, and of course lots of cuddling while watching TV. It's really only going to be time and comfort in me just being there that would help. I of all people hate hearing that time heals all wounds. This is so true but those impatient people out there, like me don't like that. But I got off topic.

The people that we let inside the walls of our heart are there for a reason. I think some people forget why we've let them into that special place in our lives. We should remind those people why we love and care for them. It serves more than one purpose, it makes the ones you love feel amazing and even yourself because you are being generous with your love. It's a real bitch though when the people you thought you knew turn out to be someone in a costume hiding their true self. Getting past the loss of the person who you thought they were is really hard. You want to fight to make it the way the person use to be, but you can't. It's always something big that causes us to look back and see where we should be thankful for those who we have now in our lives.

So it comes down to this. I am really thankful for those friends out there that look out for me...you know who you are. You should be just as thankful for the friends you have in your life doing the same. I'll leave you with this amazing quote from a great movie. I find it fitting

"you can be as mad as an angry dog at the way things went. you can swear and curse the fates...but when it comes to the end, you have to let go..."

i'm tired and can't really sleep argh..

another sad loss for the packers...we looked better than we did last game though. I kind of wish I would be able to find the love of my life at 21 and be happily married. Some days though only some. Man do I miss my friends back home.....

lots and lots of rain on halloween...not a big fan unless i'm jumping in the puddles that the rain makes. I'm tired and sick of work, very sick of it!