Today was the day that I walked across the Weidner Center stage in my very dependable rainbow sandals, shook hands with professors, strangers, grabbed my diploma, and GRADUATED!!
I did it. Four and half years of hard work has finally paid off. It really hasn't sunk in yet. I think it will once I'm not going to school and living in Green Bay. I didn't cry like high school, I just sat through the boring of boring speakers with a giant smile on my face. I was really hoping they would bring in someone cool to talk to the class like Oprah or even just Brett Favre then maybe it would be SWEET. Not the case, we had some alumni who writes for a paper in Des Moine Iowa. I didn't even hang around to get pictures with friends afterwards. Why because I had more important engagements to attend to, like a basketball game.
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Life has been crazy the past week. My dodge stratus died at 7:45 as I turned into Main Entrance Drive on campus Wednesday. Luckily it started back up but made me late for my final and really screwed me up on that exam. But after that I took it to a dealership to have it looked at. Well 2,600 dollars to fix a car not worth that much. I guess I'm going to be going car shopping or hoping for lots of money for graduation. Having no car has lead to the possibility of me moving sooner than expected from Green Bay. Not something I'm wanting to do, I've got relationships to finish, loose ends to tie up, work responsibilities, goodbye parties to attend, and a possible new relationship to explore.
My laptop decided to die and not let me type or use my mouse. The third thing added was that my camera has pressure damage, it was discovered this morning during graduation by my parents....great stuff. Everything happens in threes so hopefully I'm done now.
But through the crap there has been some good. Some really good, things that make me smile through the storm. One of them would be a certain friend of mine. Every time we talk it brings a smile to my face. He's kind of a rock star but he would be the first to deny that (he really is, I can prove it to you if you'd like). I'm really hoping things between us work out well.
(I'm quoting my friend Chadly here for a second) "do you ever want something so incredibly detailed that you're afraid to think about it too much or say anything about it because you're afraid you'll ruin it's chances of ever happening?
it could be the smallest fleeting thought. no back story. no underlying meaning. but you want it..." just to be walking down the snow-covered street with them... breathing steam through your scarf...talking over hot cocoa...being in the same bubble with them...calling them because you want to hear their voice instead of simple words on a phone's screen...spending what little time you have with them even though you barely know them....knowing that there is a reason for this and going with it because it just works...It comes at a random moment, a time when it's not what you need, a time that just doesn't work but feeling deep down in your gut knowing it might just be the perfect time...
Although it's horrible timing, I think there might be something there. I know there is something there for sure on the other end. How do I know?
-a very quiet and NOT outgoing guy comes across the bar to say hi while I was surrounded by two guy friends. (Something he later admitted that is not normal for him. awwww)
-he makes sure I know about things going on with him that I need to attend
-the wonderful emails from him. "I did pretty well on the exam...thanks to one very smart woman :)"
-The holding of tickets for my ENTIRE family even though we might not have made it
-The wonderful studying and talking that lasted four hours which only felt like 4 minutes
-Phone calls making sure everything is okay with me, my family, and my car hahaha
-Wanting to meet my parents....when I barely know him.
-Looking for me in the stands at a very crowded environment, and finding me.
-And many many other examples.
It's weird to be liked by a him, but also fun at the same time.
So I'm going to ride this wave of whatever it is and see where it takes me, to the shore or just a massive wipe out. But whatever happens on the wave I'll learn and that's the most important thing of all.
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