How old did you turn?
I turned 22 years young. Weird that it wasn't even eventful birthday fun. I did get cake sent to me by my parents that was delicious!
Did you have a party?
I tried but nobody came except for people i barely knew which was awkward, very awkward!
What school did you go to?
The good old university of Wisconsin green bay that I graduated from!
Tell us about something good that happened:
I graduated...that's good, right??
Are you happy with who you have become?
Yes but I'm always changing that is the only constant in life. I'm happy with who I am right at this very second it'll change in about the next second!
Did you fall in love?
Yes with a four legged furry animal named Lucy abbey road. She's the cutest dog ever. In love with a person only my new niece Addy Bella.
Done anything you regret?
I try to life my life with out any regrets. I don't really regret anything
Did you kiss anyone?
of course
Did you go on any holidays?
My holiday to my home in north Carolina count?
Did you go on any camps?
nope I didn't have time to do that.
Did you see any movies at the cinemas?
the dark knight, twilight and a few others but i can't remember
Tell us a song you were hooked on:
You found me by the fray
Did you go to the beach?
nope sad....
Did you get really dressed up for anything?
I had to dress up for graduation that was about it
Tell us some inside jokes for the year:
you are such a rock star! BAM!
Tell us the funniest thing that happened?
gosh there are so many!
Tell us the saddest thing that happened:
Having to say goodbye to the friends that have turned into family for me here in Wisconsin. It sucks because who knows when I'll see them again.
Tell us something that really made you smile:
my family, and friends, and a rock star
What are your plans for New Years?
Working and hoping to get that kiss at midnight. : )
Will you be getting a midnight kiss?
I don't believe so but I can dream, there is the possibility for sure, he's just gotta be there when I am
What are you most looking forward to next year?
The starting of a new chapter in my life down in North Carolina. Starting from the beginning, also seeing where this boy thing takes me.
Tell us something you plan on changing for next year?
I plan on writing a blog every single day.
Are you happy with what happened this year?
For the most part, yes...
Was 2008 your best year?
I think my best years are yet to come...
Monday, December 29, 2008
A year in review...
So it's almost the end of 2008, and how as it been well I guess that's for you to decide. But here's a recap of the past 12 months of my life in 2008.
January
January
- This month was a tough month. Right away there were set backs with my life. My family thought I wasn't happy and was getting down on myself. They said I needed to get better, it was a hard time but I'm way better now than I was then.
- January also brought the top 61 songs of 2007 hopefully you enjoyed them. There will be a top songs of 2008 coming very soon
- I also got to experience the wrath of a sharpie marker on my shoes and enjoyment of that. I will were my "sweet ass kicks" or "kicks sweet ass" shoes with pride.
- I lost my best friend from moving out of the house that was amazing. My birthday was hell and hopefully it won't be that bad ever again. But it was just a birthday nothing important. I had a lot of hurt and pain I was experiencing with the loss of my best friend just up and leaving without a goodbye. I've moved on and so has she but we've grown and are better for it. We will never be the same like we were back then but people change.
- Still no valentine on valentine's day, man that really sucks. Maybe one day I'll have one, until then I will enjoy the true title of the day as Singles Awareness Day also know as SAD
- March brought many ideas of love and hope into my life. More than what I've had before but that's okay.
- "You have to make room in your heart and your life for things that matter. It is not enough to dream. The dreaming comes easy. You have things to do. You have choices to make. It is the same with loving another person. It is not enough to say you do, or to love them when it's convenient. you have to love them every day. You have to learn their story. You have to never stop learning it. You have to listen. You have to cherish and protect.
Maybe also because true love requires risk. requires chance. we give our hearts away... we talk about forever. we believe. but many things end this side of heaven. we are fragile. our hearts break. we don't know how to stop something that we said would last forever..."
- March also brought along my belief in an African American president that would allow for change in my life and others. It allowed me to discuss my beliefs and why I'm choosing to vote for him in the primaries. I still wonder what would happen if Huckabee stayed in it, I would have voted for him. But my expression of my choices brought many fights between my family of very strong republicans. Even with my 9 year old brother who knew the "facts"
- The biggest moment in March would be getting my tattoo for my grandfather. Yup it has finally happened and was done. It was one of the greatest highlights of 2008. My grandpa Paul will be with me every where I go, no matter what he's with me every step I take.
- "He had this connection and peace with doves when he was near the end of his battle with cancer. He said that he would send one whenever we were in a need of comfort or peace. I may not have seen a snow white dove like he has but I have seen many a mourning dove. It is a nice reminder that he’s always watching over me. He and I were very close, I was his first and only grand-daughter. I was the only one he really got to know and see grow up. He told my mom that she couldn’t have any more children after me because, there is no way god could create such an amazing angel again. I have been thinking about this tattoo ever since he passed away. I finally found one I liked and thought about it for a little bit longer. My mom said that she had to be there to get it so I got it down here in Greensboro at Little John’s Tattoo Shop. It was a nice sign that the heart on the left side made a P, I know that he would have loved it. Now no matter what my grandpa will be with me(even though I know he has been with me ever since he has been gone), with anything I do in life. I know he would be proud of me his very own knuckle head, and he’ll always be my gooney bird. So this one is for you Grandpa Paul, I miss you and love you. I’m sure you’re up there making everyone laugh and causing a ruckus. I’ll do my best to keep it crazy fun down here just for you."
- Jason Mraz released his album we sing we dance we steal things. Amazing album and loved every song on it (almost). I also was a big fan of the ep's he released with the album that you could get. Thumbs up to you buddy!
- April also brought an almost insight to changing myself and who I am with life. I liked it. As of this day I'm still working on it but it's getting there.
- "What now, then? I can only really say for myself: Enjoy who I am, the talents and the liabilities. Stop acting careless. In fact, care more. Be vulnerable but stay away from where it hurts. Read. See more shows. Of any kind. Rock shows, art shows, boat shows. Create more art. Wear hoodies to dinner. Carry a notebook and hand it to people when they passionately recommend something and ask them to write it down for me. Root for others.
Give more and expect the same in return, but over time.
Act nervous when I'm nervous, puzzled when I don't know what the hell to do, and smile when it all goes my way. And never in any other order than that.
And when it's all over, whether at the end of this fabulous life, I should look back and say that I had it good and I made the most of it while I was able. And so should you."
- May wasn't very eventful, well it was but I was very busy. With opening a new best buy mobile department in Best buy, to finals, to moving, to saying goodbye to a house with so many memories.
- I moved out of my house and said goodbye to the last remaining member of the Kathy Peterson Plex, Reid. We had a wonderful reminiscence about what was good and what went bad but over all we had a blast.
- But may was busy, veryyyy busy why there weren't any blogs
- This was another major event in my life. Miss Lucy Abbey Road made her way into my life. The adorable little puppy had found a home before almost losing her life. I rescued her and she's been my sidekick ever since.
- June was also a time to reflect on the past relationships that I have had. The good and the bad, what I really missed. "I miss the top of the world trips, just to look at the stars and talking. I miss going to dollar movie nights on Tuesdays. I miss the connection we had, no matter what I knew you would be there. I miss the nights that turned into mornings goofing around. I miss the hugs and kisses goodnight. I miss seeing you every night. I miss having someone who would remind me exactly where I stand. I miss the guy advice I would get. I miss the crazy nights with SATC. I miss the common bond we had over things, like scary nuns and winning a stupid shirt. I miss singing at the top of our lungs to songs on the radio. I miss our dinner chats and free food that you weren’t suppose to give us. I miss roller blading trips. I miss wandering into your room late at night (knowing you’d be up, you always were) just to talk about my life.I miss our lists of why the day was awesome. I miss the crazy thoughts like why being a yellow pen must suck. i miss the part of you being my family, actual family, but you’re gone now. I might have screwed up in a lot of ways but others have too. Some are reasons I can’t even remember why we lost touch, some I remember like yesterday. But rebuilding the bridge is hard to do"
- It made me realize that it's possible for change and that it doesn't always come easy.
- July brought my saying goodbye to a friend that I have never met. It was Heath Ledgers final big performance on the big screen.
- July also brought the craziness of working full time at Best Buy. Ahhh the horrible hell I went through
- It was a rough month. Lucy and I got kicked out of our house, and moved into a new place faster than anyone could possibly move.
- I was really struggling with the fact that "the boys club" at work will always get there way. It's hard for a very strong willed independent woman to make a mark in a company run by the boys club. I'm hoping one day this will change for me if not me for those who come after. But for right now it's not....sad.
- I had to possibly say goodbyes to people for good because of them leaving for college and me moving.
- I realized I didn't get to enjoy my summer one bit at all. This will have to change next year. I will make sure of it!
- September brought the last day of the first day of my classes. My last time walking onto campus as a college student, it was crazy but wonderful.
- i had to deal with an energetic puppy who had 8 staples in her tummy that wasn't allowed to do anything physical for 2 weeks, that was a blast!
- This brought one of my favorite albums of the year. The glass passenger by Jack's Mannequin. I'm saying still If you haven't gone out to buy it NOW you're crazy!
- October also brought along my announcement officially to everyone that I was moving soon and that it was time to get our stuff together and hang out!
- OHHHHH and Panera finally opened and my enjoyment of soup came!
- The 4th of November was a day that I helped made history. I voted for the first African American president of the united states of America. Yes we can!
- November also brought the stepping down of a full time position at work and going to part time. Probably one of the best decisions of the year. It made my life easier, happier, and i was enjoying my senior year.
- This brought the second thanksgiving that i missed with my family. I didn't do anything and didn't even get mashed potatoes. I think that is a crime in my book.
- I fell in love with a song that I still can't get out of my head, You found me by the fray
- I went to my first and only game at Lambeau field with friends and it was a blast. I loved every second of it and it was against the Carolina panthers how fitting?
- I know it's not over yet but it's brought a lot of lasts for me. It was my last days of college classes ever, my last finals, my last day driving my dodge stratus (it's dead now) the last day walking on campus as an undergraduate.
- It brought me a new friend if not more which I'm so excited to explore while I'm here. I think there is something there for sure
- I GRADUATED! I am an official college graduate and it's weird, but hasn't sunk in yet. I will let you know what it feels like when it happens.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Riding the wave
Today was the day that I walked across the Weidner Center stage in my very dependable rainbow sandals, shook hands with professors, strangers, grabbed my diploma, and GRADUATED!!
I did it. Four and half years of hard work has finally paid off. It really hasn't sunk in yet. I think it will once I'm not going to school and living in Green Bay. I didn't cry like high school, I just sat through the boring of boring speakers with a giant smile on my face. I was really hoping they would bring in someone cool to talk to the class like Oprah or even just Brett Favre then maybe it would be SWEET. Not the case, we had some alumni who writes for a paper in Des Moine Iowa. I didn't even hang around to get pictures with friends afterwards. Why because I had more important engagements to attend to, like a basketball game.
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Life has been crazy the past week. My dodge stratus died at 7:45 as I turned into Main Entrance Drive on campus Wednesday. Luckily it started back up but made me late for my final and really screwed me up on that exam. But after that I took it to a dealership to have it looked at. Well 2,600 dollars to fix a car not worth that much. I guess I'm going to be going car shopping or hoping for lots of money for graduation. Having no car has lead to the possibility of me moving sooner than expected from Green Bay. Not something I'm wanting to do, I've got relationships to finish, loose ends to tie up, work responsibilities, goodbye parties to attend, and a possible new relationship to explore.
My laptop decided to die and not let me type or use my mouse. The third thing added was that my camera has pressure damage, it was discovered this morning during graduation by my parents....great stuff. Everything happens in threes so hopefully I'm done now.
But through the crap there has been some good. Some really good, things that make me smile through the storm. One of them would be a certain friend of mine. Every time we talk it brings a smile to my face. He's kind of a rock star but he would be the first to deny that (he really is, I can prove it to you if you'd like). I'm really hoping things between us work out well.
(I'm quoting my friend Chadly here for a second) "do you ever want something so incredibly detailed that you're afraid to think about it too much or say anything about it because you're afraid you'll ruin it's chances of ever happening?
it could be the smallest fleeting thought. no back story. no underlying meaning. but you want it..." just to be walking down the snow-covered street with them... breathing steam through your scarf...talking over hot cocoa...being in the same bubble with them...calling them because you want to hear their voice instead of simple words on a phone's screen...spending what little time you have with them even though you barely know them....knowing that there is a reason for this and going with it because it just works...It comes at a random moment, a time when it's not what you need, a time that just doesn't work but feeling deep down in your gut knowing it might just be the perfect time...
Although it's horrible timing, I think there might be something there. I know there is something there for sure on the other end. How do I know?
-a very quiet and NOT outgoing guy comes across the bar to say hi while I was surrounded by two guy friends. (Something he later admitted that is not normal for him. awwww)
-he makes sure I know about things going on with him that I need to attend
-the wonderful emails from him. "I did pretty well on the exam...thanks to one very smart woman :)"
-The holding of tickets for my ENTIRE family even though we might not have made it
-The wonderful studying and talking that lasted four hours which only felt like 4 minutes
-Phone calls making sure everything is okay with me, my family, and my car hahaha
-Wanting to meet my parents....when I barely know him.
-Looking for me in the stands at a very crowded environment, and finding me.
-And many many other examples.
It's weird to be liked by a him, but also fun at the same time.
So I'm going to ride this wave of whatever it is and see where it takes me, to the shore or just a massive wipe out. But whatever happens on the wave I'll learn and that's the most important thing of all.
I did it. Four and half years of hard work has finally paid off. It really hasn't sunk in yet. I think it will once I'm not going to school and living in Green Bay. I didn't cry like high school, I just sat through the boring of boring speakers with a giant smile on my face. I was really hoping they would bring in someone cool to talk to the class like Oprah or even just Brett Favre then maybe it would be SWEET. Not the case, we had some alumni who writes for a paper in Des Moine Iowa. I didn't even hang around to get pictures with friends afterwards. Why because I had more important engagements to attend to, like a basketball game.
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Life has been crazy the past week. My dodge stratus died at 7:45 as I turned into Main Entrance Drive on campus Wednesday. Luckily it started back up but made me late for my final and really screwed me up on that exam. But after that I took it to a dealership to have it looked at. Well 2,600 dollars to fix a car not worth that much. I guess I'm going to be going car shopping or hoping for lots of money for graduation. Having no car has lead to the possibility of me moving sooner than expected from Green Bay. Not something I'm wanting to do, I've got relationships to finish, loose ends to tie up, work responsibilities, goodbye parties to attend, and a possible new relationship to explore.
My laptop decided to die and not let me type or use my mouse. The third thing added was that my camera has pressure damage, it was discovered this morning during graduation by my parents....great stuff. Everything happens in threes so hopefully I'm done now.
But through the crap there has been some good. Some really good, things that make me smile through the storm. One of them would be a certain friend of mine. Every time we talk it brings a smile to my face. He's kind of a rock star but he would be the first to deny that (he really is, I can prove it to you if you'd like). I'm really hoping things between us work out well.
(I'm quoting my friend Chadly here for a second) "do you ever want something so incredibly detailed that you're afraid to think about it too much or say anything about it because you're afraid you'll ruin it's chances of ever happening?
it could be the smallest fleeting thought. no back story. no underlying meaning. but you want it..." just to be walking down the snow-covered street with them... breathing steam through your scarf...talking over hot cocoa...being in the same bubble with them...calling them because you want to hear their voice instead of simple words on a phone's screen...spending what little time you have with them even though you barely know them....knowing that there is a reason for this and going with it because it just works...It comes at a random moment, a time when it's not what you need, a time that just doesn't work but feeling deep down in your gut knowing it might just be the perfect time...
Although it's horrible timing, I think there might be something there. I know there is something there for sure on the other end. How do I know?
-a very quiet and NOT outgoing guy comes across the bar to say hi while I was surrounded by two guy friends. (Something he later admitted that is not normal for him. awwww)
-he makes sure I know about things going on with him that I need to attend
-the wonderful emails from him. "I did pretty well on the exam...thanks to one very smart woman :)"
-The holding of tickets for my ENTIRE family even though we might not have made it
-The wonderful studying and talking that lasted four hours which only felt like 4 minutes
-Phone calls making sure everything is okay with me, my family, and my car hahaha
-Wanting to meet my parents....when I barely know him.
-Looking for me in the stands at a very crowded environment, and finding me.
-And many many other examples.
It's weird to be liked by a him, but also fun at the same time.
So I'm going to ride this wave of whatever it is and see where it takes me, to the shore or just a massive wipe out. But whatever happens on the wave I'll learn and that's the most important thing of all.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
My beginning of the end of things I've done.
So Wednesday was my last official day of classes. it was surreal thinking I wasn't going to be coming back after Christmas break to the buildings (and tunnels) I've come to know over the years. I'm excited, really excited for the new chapter in my life. I'm trying not to deal with the sadness, well I am but I'm being positive. So I decided to make a few lists of things that I have done in my 4.5 years in college.
I have moved 8 times soon to be 9. Mind you two of those times were back home to Eau Claire for the summer, but still it sucks. Probably the worse move was when there was a giant hurricane like storm sitting over top of green bay and we had to move that day. My favorite place that I lived hands down would be on Kathy Peterson. Although it was full of problems over all it was great fun I loved it. The worse place, we all know what that one was starts with Big and ends in house. I'm so glad I'm out of that place.
I've had 14 roomates. Freshman year was Becca. Sophomore year was Erica, Bejya and Jamie. I shared a room with Jamie and we had fun, well she enjoyed my sleep walking and talking. My junior year I lived with Amanda, Kari, Carissa, Kristin, and Heather. My senior year I lived with Abe Shell and Reid. This summer I lived with Katie kind of...and now my coolest and furriest roomie is Lucy.
I have been to Minnesota, Michigan, North Carolina, Illinois, and Ohio. Granted most were for layovers. My favorite airport is o'hare hands down. But I also like the Greensboro airport when flying into it, why? Because it means I'm finally home : )
I've had the same plates bowls and cups from when I moved in freshman year, although many are missing I still have at least one of each thing to this day. I also still have the plant that my mom had when she was in her own apartment. Although i'm not sure if it's in the best plant life condition but it's still around and has at least 2 leaves on it.
I have worked in 5 different jobs. Instructing soccer to little kids, working at the pool, refereeing, nannying kids from hell, and finally Best Buy. Has it lead me to find what I want to do with my life? Nope not at all, except for the fact that not all kids are cute and sweet like my little brothers were. Don't let them fool you!
Over the four years I have lost my tonsils and many other random things. You know, those things that you can never find when you really need them.
I have 3 exams, 2 chapter responses, 1 research paper, and an assignment away from Graduating on Saturday December 20th 2008.
That's all for now.
I was thinking since this was the blog of college: the beginning to end that this blog will be over soon. But have no fear I will still write but it's not going to be under the context of college. I am thinking that I want to print off the posts that I have made in the past years and put them into chapters, bind them, and make it into a book. It'd be nice to have don't you think? If anyone knows how to do this please feel free to send me an email. One more week, 7 days I can do it!
I have moved 8 times soon to be 9. Mind you two of those times were back home to Eau Claire for the summer, but still it sucks. Probably the worse move was when there was a giant hurricane like storm sitting over top of green bay and we had to move that day. My favorite place that I lived hands down would be on Kathy Peterson. Although it was full of problems over all it was great fun I loved it. The worse place, we all know what that one was starts with Big and ends in house. I'm so glad I'm out of that place.
I've had 14 roomates. Freshman year was Becca. Sophomore year was Erica, Bejya and Jamie. I shared a room with Jamie and we had fun, well she enjoyed my sleep walking and talking. My junior year I lived with Amanda, Kari, Carissa, Kristin, and Heather. My senior year I lived with Abe Shell and Reid. This summer I lived with Katie kind of...and now my coolest and furriest roomie is Lucy.
I have been to Minnesota, Michigan, North Carolina, Illinois, and Ohio. Granted most were for layovers. My favorite airport is o'hare hands down. But I also like the Greensboro airport when flying into it, why? Because it means I'm finally home : )
I've had the same plates bowls and cups from when I moved in freshman year, although many are missing I still have at least one of each thing to this day. I also still have the plant that my mom had when she was in her own apartment. Although i'm not sure if it's in the best plant life condition but it's still around and has at least 2 leaves on it.
I have worked in 5 different jobs. Instructing soccer to little kids, working at the pool, refereeing, nannying kids from hell, and finally Best Buy. Has it lead me to find what I want to do with my life? Nope not at all, except for the fact that not all kids are cute and sweet like my little brothers were. Don't let them fool you!
Over the four years I have lost my tonsils and many other random things. You know, those things that you can never find when you really need them.
I have 3 exams, 2 chapter responses, 1 research paper, and an assignment away from Graduating on Saturday December 20th 2008.
That's all for now.
I was thinking since this was the blog of college: the beginning to end that this blog will be over soon. But have no fear I will still write but it's not going to be under the context of college. I am thinking that I want to print off the posts that I have made in the past years and put them into chapters, bind them, and make it into a book. It'd be nice to have don't you think? If anyone knows how to do this please feel free to send me an email. One more week, 7 days I can do it!
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