Let that be enough....

I wish I had what I need

to be on my own

'Cause I feel so defeated

And I'm feeling alone

And It all seems so helpless

And I have no plans

I'm a plane in the sunset

With no where to land

And all I see it could never make me happy

And all my sand castles spend their time collapsing

And I feel stuck

Watching history repeating

Yeah, who am I?

Just a kid who knows she's needy

Let me know that you hear me.

Let me know your touch

Let me know that you love me

and let that be enough.

So life has been very busy, but it's slowing down. My life has been on repeat with the same things happening each day over and over again. Wake up, Lucy, class, work, Lucy, sleep repeat.

I wasn't enjoying my last two months (eek I can't believe it's coming that fast). So I decided that I needed to take time for my puppy, for my friends, but most importantly m y s e l f. What does that mean? It meant dropping down to 17 hours a week at work. It was something that friends and family were saying was necessary, I was not a fan of this option. This was a very hard decision for me to make, I don't like just quiting things, being a failure. But after talking about it and thinking A LOT about it I decided it was the right thing to do.

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I can tell there is a major difference in my life already and it's only been a week. I have been able to take my car in to get fixed after 3 months of it being junk. My puppy Lucy loves the attention she's getting. My apartment doesn't look like a disaster zone, it's CLEAN. I am able to spend more time on school work (which is the most important thing anyways). I'm getting to hang out and relax with friends who I might NEVER see again. But most important is that I am HaPpY again. Work isn't something that I'm dreading going to, I forgot what it felt like to feel this way about work. I'm glad it's back.

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At this time next week I will be back in the old stomping grounds of Eau Claire. I'm excited to see old faces and familiar places. I've missed a lot of the people and the places I used to call home. I also will be able to hear the wonderful sounds of Jason Mraz. I'm excited big time. I was starting to put a list together of things I've done in the past 4 and half years while in college, shows I've been to, places I've seen etc. That might be a week's worth of blogs, but something to look forward to.

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Oh Switchfoot has been on my current list music playing through my ears,(and rental car) especially the best yet album. Check it out, good band, with a great message. (They are on that list of people I've met, seen and heard, a few times actually)

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Love to you all, and go hug your mom, she'll love it. Every mom deserves random hugs from her kids every once in awhile. (-------mom------) (Mom consider this your virtual hug since I'm 1,600 miles away right now.)