Holy Guacamole!

So here it goes....Life is complicated right now, there are finals coming up and moving houses. I also have found myself a nannying job but I'm not real sure if just this job is going to get my by for the summer. I think I need to get another one, but where? I've been stretched big time in the God area, I've dealt with hard times and good ones, change is good because I'm growing. GRACE is so amazing. My goodness I have no idea how I got into this again....life was going along great. I was happy with being single and CONTENT for once in my life and BAM! Someone who I didn't even think would be potential comes walking into my life. Maybe it's me and my tendancy to read into things too much but I'm feeling some vibes. Maybe things are the complete opposite of what I think but this intuition is huge on him. I think my remaining silent on my feelings right now might be the best thing. He is the one that should persue me. That reminds me of a Bethany Dillon song...

Walk towards me
I want to hear
The heavens singing over you
When you breathe
And look at me
I want to be captured by you

Gaze into my eyes
And let me know you’d fight
Thousands, for my love
Slip your hand in mine
Ask me to dance with you tonight
Just ask me for my love

I want to hide
What’s deep in my eyes
I’m scared to be known by you
But when I turn my head
And see you there
I want to be pursued

Dang I don't know what to do! I hate this feeling of unknown and uncertainty especially when it comes to this. Should I just wait and see how things go over the summer and start it up next fall?? I think this has to do the way things with Jared and I started and ended. He was so blunt and just straight up told me how he felt right from the start. Almost every guy that I have had in my life has screwed with my mind or my heart, will I ever be able to get over this hurt and trust them?