Help! I need somebody...

"Black bird singing in the dead of night

take these broken wings and learn to fly

all your life.

You were only waiting for this moment to arise.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night

take these soaken eyes and learn to see

all your life

you were only waiting for this moment to be free."

Today was BEAUTIFUL outside, I even added a few freckles to my face and color to my skin. I have been super busy dealing with life and Green Bay all at the same time. There for I have been avoiding this so I am going to try to sit down and write something creative and spunky. (sorry if I disappoint you in this one) I have less than 10 days left of living here in Green bay with the girls that I do. I don't know how I feel about this...I have been trying to so hard to love these girls the way they are and try to make the best of what I am dealt with. I don't know if i'm going to miss them or not I know I'll miss more than others for sure. there will be a lot less drama and problems brough into my life without me living with them. don't get me wrong i love the girls to death but I don't know if living with them would be the best thing. To make it short I am ready to get out of this place and into a new one.

It's coming in stages with this whole losing my family thing. It has it's up and its down. I know I'll break down when I finally get home for the summer. I know it's going to be bad as the summer rolls on to the final days in the E.C. That's when it's going to be tough. It will be weird not seeing and talking to the people I have come to know and love around here. That's what the summer is for I guess. Just to let you all know save the date of the last weekend in July. You are invited to the moving out of the house/aubs' half birthday celebration at my house. There'll be more to come as the day comes closer. Maybe to cure my sadness of losing my family a pint of ben and jerry's and crawling up in a ball and sobbing might help.

Tomorrow is game night with a bunch of my good friends and I am pumped. It does mean however I need to get everything done tonight, oh well I have the physics and the paper done. Just have to get ready for the abnormal psych test tomorrow. I know that stuff though....super well.

Finally I got a message from kelley and here is how to solve my problem With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible ~Matthew 19:26 Just have to believe in God and know he'll take care of me.

I love you all more than you know and hope today is awesome and tomorrow is even better!