"I am still determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be; for I have also learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances."~Martha Washington
"Take me for what I am, who I was meant to be. And if you give a damn, take me baby or leave me." ~Rent
As I currently write this there is a pow-wow going on in the next room. Why I am not there? Because I don't want to deal with things. I have been replaced and it's slowly starting to work it's way into my life by the others I live with. It's depressing, knowing that you're replaceable. I don't want to hear about the plans, especially when you are told there's no reason for you to even be there, that hurt a lot. The giggling, the laughs, and the remeniscing is stabbing me slowly each and every time. I can't get away from it. The worst part is that the girl who is moving in with them is not like them at all. It was one of the girl's roomies last year and they didn't get along, why do it again? It's not like I had much of a choice in the whole situation. Maybe it's a wink saying that it's the right thing to be doing. I'm lost, hurt, maybe even jealous, and down to the last bit of nothing, next thing that comes along is going to crush me. Maybe I'll just avoid going over there next year, it's going to be weird, who knows, but this sucks. Adios kids, I'm sure you'll find someone else to replace me as well....
1 comment:
It's in my style.
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