Well I guess that is that...

So I’ve been down here in the south for almost 2 years now. Yes it has seemed much longer than it really has been, but I’ve stayed in touch with almost everyone from college and friends I had in Wisconsin. I found out via facebook tonight that one of the girls who I was roommates with and very close with through out college got engaged…..in October. I’m not sure how to take all of it. I guess I should expected it because my other roommate got married and I didn’t even get an invite to the wedding. Silly me thought it got lost in the mail. Funny thing is, I’m moving back to Wisconsin at some point in the same city as some of them, maybe I won’t tell them and randomly run into them on the street. and ignore them.

All it makes me think is that I have been forgotten about or I am…

f o r g e t t a b l e……

p.s. why are all my friends getting married but me? I feel like I'm the one left out of a huge joke. What if I wanted to get engaged too?? (no there is no potential guy in my life to even thing of marrying or dating, in case you were wondering mom, so I guess I'll be left out of the joke for a long while....)

My childhood best friend got married at the Aubreyland Hotel!!!

My childhood best friend since we were 18 months old, on the left, who got married this weekend. My date, his younger brother Garrett on the right. These guys have been like my family since forever. So happy for you Jaron!

It's kind of funny ever since we were little we talked about being in each other's weddings but having a girl be a best man wouldn't work out too well. We've grown apart over the years but stayed in contact the best we could. I would call him and he would maybe get back to me, typical of him. So I wasn't a part of the wedding party but he got married at MY land. Well not really but ever since I was little when my parents and grand parents took me to Opryland, I would call it Aubreyland instead. (I personally think it works) Even as we were driving the GPS would call it Aubrey land instead of it's real name. So it was kind of nice knowing I indirectly was part of the wedding, even if it wasn't planned that way.

Perspective from November 24th

Tonight was a night that I wasn’t expecting. It was nice and needed thinking about it now. I went back to my old job to pick up the new Kanye West CD. (Since I still technically work for the big blue box I still get my discount, yay!) All of the supervisors I worked with were there as well as 3 managers. After I walked out the door I had a wonderful conversation with my old supervisor. Well wonderful for me, not for him. This is the supervisor that’s job I should have gotten. It was later revealed to me that they regretted and should have chosen me for the job, not him.

We talked for over an hour outside the store on how bad it is. How much he hates his job and the rest of the store hates working there. How he’s looking for any way out. Even if it was a cut in pay and position. It was a sign for me. I needed to hear all of these things that they are going through. How much the job has sucked. I thought, this could have been me! I could be hating my job and getting yelled at every day, worried if I would be fired every day I walked into that building.

While we were talking I had this feeling of being thankful for where I am now. I’ve moved on from the black hole that is sucking the life out of everyone. It made me love my job even more than I do. I may get stressed out because things are not being done the right way, or my boss is stressing out for no reason, stressing me out, BUT I’d take that any day over what it was like at my old job. I AM HAPPY going into work each day. I no longer am in fear of losing my job like everyone is at my old store. I am appreciated for doing things and respected by most of the people I work with. (There is one that doesn’t respect me but I’m over it, and that person.)

Tonight was needed, to appreciate and have an attitude of gratitude for my job now. It’s also nice to laugh in their faces that I ended up in a better place than they did, those who doubted me. So whenever I’m having a bad day, people at work are bothering me, I need to remember this night. This conversation. Because I could have it one billion times worse than what it is. The universe works in crazy ways and tonight it showed me that everything happens for a reason. Always remember that.

My cousin just added me on facebook

(this is from November 4th)

So my dad has 4 siblings, all who have at least 4 kids per sibling. I have avoided the whole being friends with them on facebook for a few reasons.

1) We NEVER have been close. Close as is in physical location or close as a relationship.

2) Last time I saw any of them I was 8 years old, I’m 24 now. Most of them were babies or wouldn’t remember or know me. A lot has changed since I was 8, my haircut being the first thing.

3) My dad’s side of the family has a very hard time communicating with each other. This side of the family just sends out generic christmas cards each year to each other. That’s it. Nothing more. For example, I found out one of my cousins who is my age, got married and had a baby, after the fact from my grandma. This is something you usually share with your family right?

I’m happy in my little bubble of my mom, dad and little brothers. I’m not sure how I’m going to like this whole facebook with extended family thing. Because you know once one cousin adds you, the rest of the family will find out and add you….

HERE COMES AN TON OF OLD POSTS and increase in my bloggage as an update