Halloween is crazy but not as much as the traffic that is around this dang city

My five live TV segments went great! I only screwed up a little bit on the ereaders but other than that everyone has said it was GREAT and I knocked it out of the park. Once it gets online I'll try to post it. I finally got my slide show working on my Windows 7 background and I love it! Time so sleep and get to working tomorrow.

I am tired and have to wake up at 445 am to get ready for my live 5 segment tv shoots starting at 615 eeeeeeek

Today was my day off. I was going to go on an adventure but then it started to rain and my mom had taken my car....so we ended up going to have dessert at Mimi's and saw my wonderful friends there. I then came home and took a major nap while installing my free copy of Window's 7! so far so good with the program we'll see in a few weeks.

So for some reason it wouldn't let me post last night....the site was down for maintenance or something. So I'll do two posts today...I'll make it up some how.

blah blah blah...

For some reason my 23 year old body is acting like it is way older than that. My knees and legs killed me today after work and I'm just wiped when I come home. It's pretty pathetic that all I do is get home, lay down, and play the one video game I like. Then I wake up and do it all over again the next day. I am going to need to take a vacation or something. Go some where warm and just relax with a book and the sun and maybe a massage or two. Man being a big kid sucks.

I really wish that my friends would come down here and visit me. I understand that they are busy and money is tight right now but I've been up to Green Bay twice since I moved now. Nobody has come here yet....maybe just maybe for my birthday they all could come and surprise me. That would make EVERYTHING so much more amazing than that crappy birthday that I had last year.

I guess homecoming is this weekend for North Carolina A&T and there are going to parties every where at every time of day. I am not quite sure what to expect with it all, but I might just hide from it.

More inspiration.

Amazing....and so true

You have been given a direct order to rock the fuck out. Rock out like you were just given the last rock and roll album on earth and the minutes are counting down to flames. Rock out like you just won both showcase showdowns. Rock out like the streets are empty except for you, your bicycle and your headphones. Rock out like your lips, which are placed onto a breakdancing muse with legs that go all the way up. Rock out like you’ll never have to open a textbook again. Rock out like you get paid to disturb the peace. Rock out like music is all that you got. Rock out like you’re standing on a rooftop and the city’s as loud and glowing as a river below you. Rock out like the plane is going down, there are 120 people on board, and 121 parachutes. Rock out like the streets and the books are all on fire and the only way it can be extinguished is by doin’ the electric slide. Rock out like it’s Saturday afternoon and Monday is a national holiday. Rock out like somebody’s got a barrel pointed at your temple saying ‘Rock out like your life depended on it, fool,‘ because it does. Rock out like your eyes are fading but you still got your ears. But you don’t know for how long so rock out like 5 o’clock time, make pop-in-lot time. Rock out like you got pants full of tokens and nothing to do but everything. Rock out like you are the international ski-ball champion of the entire universe. Rock out like you just escaped an evil orphanage to join a Russian circus. Rock out like your hero is fallen and you are spinning your limbs until they burst into a burning fire of remembrance. Rock out like you’re enslaved in the south and dancing is all that you have to know who you are. Rock out like your dead grandfather just came back to take a drive with you in your new car. Rock out like the table is full. Rock out like the neighbors are away. Rock out like the walls won’t fall but, dammit, you’re going to die trying to make them. Rock out like the stereo’s volume knob is the figure 8 of infinity instead of merely numbers. Rock out like it’s raining outside and you’ve got a girl to run through it with. Rock out like you’re playing football! Football in the mud and your washing machine is not broken. Rock out like you throwing your window open on your honeymoon because you want the whole world to know what love is. Rock out like you just got a book published. Rock out like you just went to your high school reunion to find everyone, even the women, are all overweight and bald, except for the former homecoming queen, who you just found out, got divorced from her impotent husband and only has eyes for.. YOU! Rock out like you just got a date with Heidi Klum. Rock out like a shadow man passes behind you, drops you to your knees. You’re buckling in sweat, cold metal’s pushed to your forhead, the trigger’s pulled and the gun jams. Rock out like you got an empty appointment book, and a full tank of gas. Rock out like Jimi has returned carrying brand new guitar strings. Rock out like the mangos are in season. Rock out like the record player won’t skip. Rock out like this was the last weekend, like these were the last words, like you don’t ever want to forget how.

-Anis Mojgani

Descibes so many people

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well I guess I'll make my own way
It's the circle, I mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore
Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge, but if you're gonna judge me,
Well sentence me to another life
Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
'Cause you know we're not the same
We're not the same (No!)
Oh we're not the same
Yeah, the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good
It's good

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

And this is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person, but you can't take it
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well, now I can fend for myself

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

FOR CLARIFICATION!!!

I was informed by a certain smarty pants that I forgot a day yesterday. Why? Because I posted a blog last night past midnight and it put it as Wednesday. So for those who are really counting this will be for WEDNESDAY'S blog. Not much to it but guess what I'm tired and Windows 7 comes out tomorrow and this girl has to open.....Great night having fun with Jordan and sadly losing to my mom in a tie breaker of phase 10.

my throat really hurts....i need some ice cream or something. work and hanging out with Jordan should be a fun day

Love this song it's great...tired and sick so not much is coming from my brain tonight.

I'm going away for a while
But I'll be back
Don't try to follow me
'Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See, I'm trying to find my place
But it might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes...

And run from them, from them
With no direction
We'll run from them, from them
With no conviction

'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts
Travelin' endlessly
Don't need no roads
In fact, they follow me
And we just go in circles...

And now I'm told that this is life
That pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it

Would someone care to classify
Our broken hearts and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on
And run to them, to them
Full speed ahead
Oh, you are not useless
We are just

Misguided ghosts
Travelin' endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away
And there's no one road
We should not be the same
But I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me
They echo me in circles

this makes my week...man do I miss her : (

Jess said...

i say....that you move to appleton :)

you can work at 27 with me.

and we can watch tv, and be merry.

i love you and miss you a ton. more than you possibly know.

I need a vacation longer than 2 days ASAP. Argh it's the holiday season too....aka hell for those working in retail. This is me now: tired, sick, exhausted, and sore. I've gotta be back to the big blue box by 9 am tomorrow for 9 hours. I may just have to stop at Caribou on my way in and get a HUGE hot apple spice so I can make it through.

It's getting cold here, but it's going to go back to the 70's. I kind of like the cold it makes it feel more like winter. I work to much end of story.

forced to stay 2 hours past my time to leave at work....not a happy camper!

I really miss my friends back home. Big time. I miss the fact that I could have Jess over at any point in time just to watch tv and we'd be happy. I miss Icky and all his crazy grrs that he made and how he loved on me no matter what. I miss Tay Tay and all his packer talk and being his psych. I miss Tara and all her hippie awesomeness and artisitic abilities she had. I miss Matty and his weird self that he is. I miss Shell and having her right in the next room up until 4 am. Gosh I miss everyone so much. I hope one day I will be able to find those people in my life down here but as of today I haven't. : ( Maybe it's a sign that I should go back to where I was planted??

mmmmm sleep

What a long day.....thank goodness for my two days off starting now!!! I need sleep and not going to waste time.

Man counting a bunch of things and scanning EVERYTHING in the department was not fun. I punched out at 2:54 am. I have to be back there in the afternoon tomorrow...then it's two days off wahoo!!

i'm tired and exhausted but have to stay up late because of stupid product inventory tomorrow night at the blue box....argh.

i am me. take it or leave it. I will not change because of your idea of who I should be. Plain and simple.

Editor in Chief Takes Over

I have taken control over Aubrey's blog because I can no longer stay silent about STD. Many suffer with this problem with symptoms beginning in High School. It is currently running rampant in a big box store where people wear blue. This problem can cause rational people to loose their minds. The only way to fight this problem is for these people to pull their heads out of their ass and face the problem head on. The STD that I'm talking about is STOP THE DRAMA. If you hear something, don't take it as the truth unless you can verify the facts. If you have a problem with someone, talk to them directly rather than spreading incorrect information. Drama makes you look like an idiot. It also hurts others and that is just unacceptable. How can these people take others feelings for granted? So much energy is wasted on negative drama. Lies will catch up with you and bite you in the butt. Many of these suffers I have met and I want them to know how disappointed I am in you. In other words shut your fucking mouth and grow up. So JUST STOP THE DRAMA!!!!!

killing zombies is very therapeutic....

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

I want to scream!!!
Jason mraz is so amazing and said everything i couldn't.

Transformation is my favorite game and in my experience, anger and frustration are the result of you not being authentic somewhere in your life or with someone in your life. Being fake about anything creates a block inside of you. Life can’t work for you if you don’t show up as you. It’ll weigh heavy in your stomach when you sense something isn’t being said. It eventually turns itself into stress, which unattended explodes in the form of anger. Many people ignore themselves in a situation and look for other people and circumstances to blame, but anger and frustration form within. Your thoughts, speech, beliefs, actions and attitudes create the picture of your life. Draw it well.

Frustration and Love can’t exist in the same place at the same time, so get real and start doing what you would rather be doing in life. Love your life. All of it. Even the heavy shit that happened to you when you were 8. All of it was and IS perfect.

Last night was heartbreaking and I didn't have anything to say after that game.

what a long and exhausting day. I don't like morning meetings they suck

My ipod is missing.....if found please contact me. My ears miss hearing the wonderful sounds that it lets out. 7 am morning meeting tomorrow and I'm not happy about it.

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

Sometimes people don't understand what respect really means....it bothers me. You should treat people how you would like to be treated. Would I like to be a jerk to everyone? No. So lets look at what the definition of respect is...
RESPECT
-(usually preceded by `in') a detail or point; 'it differs in that respect'
-esteem: the condition of being honored (esteemed or respected or well regarded); 'it is held in esteem'; 'a man who has earned high regard-an attitude of admiration or esteem; 'she lost all respect for him'
-deference: a courteous expression (by word or deed) of esteem or regard; 'his deference to her wishes was very flattering'; 'be sure to give my respects to the dean'
-obedience: behavior intended to please your parents; 'their children were never very strong on -obedience'; 'he went to law school out of respect for his father's wishes'
-regard highly; think much of; 'I respect his judgement'; 'We prize his creativity'
-regard: a feeling of friendship and esteem; 'she mistook his manly regard for love'; 'he inspires -respect'
-show respect towards; 'honor your parents!'"

I think if we all knew what was supposed to be respect the world would be a better place. We should be loving and caring of others and this worlds is not that. Step by step, breath by breath, we should be exuding love towards others and just as important ourselves. Without respect and love this world isn't worth being around. So try to be a better person today and show that you love and respect someone. It may be something small like holding the door or something big like flowers and candy, but do something, anything. Try to make this world a better place than what it is. Love and peace

Lightening Strike

I'm not sure how I'm suppose to take all of this in. I know I was told that there may be changes and new locations but it was a once in a blue moon mention. This time it seems that it's going to be a big thing. It's a weird situation that I am going to be put in and it eerily feels familiar. I don't like it. I know what I did back then but is that something I want to do now? I feel like things are just starting to look up and be normal in my life, of course this is thrown my way. I just hope and pray that everything ends up okay for my family. I know what Ian will be going through, well sort of. I know what kind of position it puts everyone in and it's not fun. There's a lot running through my head on what to do. I might just need a vacation from it all....

"What if this storm ends?
And leaves us nothing
Except a memory
A distant echo

I want pinned down
I want unsettled
Rattle cage after cage
Until my blood boils..."

I was complimented today by a very cute guy at work today about my eyes. It was great and I also was told I have a big butt by another guy...I guess that's a good thing down here?