Today was a BEAUTIFUL fall day here in NC. It was what I like to call the perfect type of weather. Blue skies enough warmth to wear shorts and a tee during the day and then a hoodie at night. I kind of like the fact that I don't have to worry about bundling up for the crazy winters that Wisconsin had to offer. I'm excited to look cute and warm all at once. Unlike in Wisconsin where the more layers you had the better. Puffy vest and a hoodie all winter, I can take that.

Oh and I found the wonderfulness that Pandora is online. Man is it awesome. I also still am wanting an iphone even more now that my 30 gb ipod is full. That 32 gb one for 299 is looking pretty awesome. Christmas gifts like that are much appreciated : )

Tonight it was proven that Connor and I are both THE BEST at guitar hero. We are unstoppable in anything we do, guitar hero, work, you name it Frick and Frack will take you down!

Planning, organizing, expectations, set in stone...

I was trying to think of something wonderful to write today when driving from work. I wasn't sure what to write but it then hit me later on in the evening...why do people make plans? I'm not talking about plans to hang out but it can be put into this. We plan ahead for our day, our week, our year, our life. We are constantly looking ahead to what we are going to be doing. Plans to be married to the love of your life by 26 with two kids and a dog. Graduate college in four years. Live a long happy life. Where you will be living in a year, five years, 10 years. Find the job of a life time by the age of 30. Die of old age. But life doesn't work out like that does it? You end up in a loveless relationship with a guy that doesn't do anything, who is allergic to dogs and doesn't want kids. You don't pass a test necessary to graduate college and have to stay longer. You end up working at a dead end job because the economy sucks and it's getting you money which you need. You lose your left contact from your eye and can't get any more contacts until you see the eye doctor two days later. Life is crazy like that. It is never what we planned it out to be...

We have things that come into our life that smashes those plans out the window. It's almost the only thing certain that when you plan something, it will be interrupted or totally wiped away. It's actually kind of funny. If it's going to be rocky why even plan anything? What would life be like if we just lived to actual L I V E. No sense of time, deadlines, being somewhere at the right time. Many would argue it would cause us to become lazy and do nothing. But I believe we all thrive off of love. Love and connections with others would be the fuel that makes you find another person. The people who would sit around and be alone would eventually find a connection with someone, something, anything that would cause them to do something. We all have that thing that makes us do something, we may not know it but it is there. I think the world would be a happier place, it may not run like it is now but there would be a way around it. Who knows...crazier things have happened. Just think no organizers, no blackberries planning out our every move, no words like late. We would be connected by love and trust in humanity. It is something the world is missing.

Really it comes down to this, we can only live in the moment and be thankful for what we have RIGHT NOW. I have to be thankful that I have a heart that beats and lungs that help me breathe. I am ALIVE and LIVING right NOW! I have to learn that plans fall through and it is not something I can get mad about, well at least try not to get mad about. It is this...

I am grateful for all of life. I am being thankful for everything I see and everything I don't see.

i promise I will have a more insightful and wonderful blog tomorrow when I'm not spending nights out with new friends who are AWESOME!! just hope they don't turn out to be like my other former friends I've made down here in the 'boro.

sick and sleepy....not a good combo when trying to blog.

I am starting to get really congested... It's bad like don't want to describe how nasty my snot is bad. But I did work through it and got some soup in me to have fun tonight. I am so happy I have found a bunch of new friends to hang out with. Although somethings aren't what I do I'm cool with it. Hey it's life right? The band that one of them is in is pretty rockin'. I had a blast tonight! I'm excited that they are playing again on Saturday. Might just have to make an appearance. I'm also going to kick some butt in Guitar hero tomorrow after work against my brother also know as frick at work Connor! He claims he's better but highly doubt it. Night ya'll time to sleep in until 11 tomorrow, yay!!

Great day today. I actually talked about a lot of stuff today and got it out. It was good. I also had a fun time bowling and meeting new people. It was just wonderful. Can't say much more than that. I have to open tomorrow and then more fun with new friends. I like it.

I'm so so so excited for this to come out in less than a month!!


I'm also in love with the frames song called seven day mile.
Today has been a lazy day in bed with a cold. Could have been better but could have been worse.

wonderful evening with my boo thomas. I also ran into a boy who happens to be introduced to me on friday randomly : )

We all have a weakness
But some of ours are easy to identify.
Look me in the eye and ask for forgiveness;
We'll make a pact to never speak that word again
Yes you are my friend.

We all have something that digs at us,
At least we dig each other
So when weakness turns my ego up
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday

If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me
Sing this song
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.

We all have a sickness
That cleverly attaches and multiplies
No matter how we try.

We all have someone that digs at us,
At least we dig each other
So when sickness turns my ego up
I know you'll act as a clever medicine.

If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.

Oh each other....
When everything else is gone.

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, ohh
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh

If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.

Oh each other....
When everything else is gone.
Oh each other....
When everything else is gone.

Dig by Incubus check it out. Off to bed for me....

New place to eat. New person to become friends with. New number to put in my phone. I think I like my mom trying to find me friends. At least this one is cute : )

Man one more day and then it's the weekend and for once I'm able to enjoy it because I have a saturday off. WAHOO

Man have I been wiped by working all the time. Being a big kid sucks sometimes. I might have to take a vacation soon....off to bed to work by 10 am tomorrow

God takes people in and out of our life for many reasons. Even if it's our best friend,good friend or any kind of friend. Right now I feel as if he has taking a few out my life for one reason or another. So for the chosen few I love you and glad that I still have you.

Screw you and all the time wasted on our friendship....this is frustrating really frustrating

OH MY GOODNESS GO PACK GO!!!!

How???

So I found out an old roommate of mine got married this past weekend, I didn't even get invited. I'm hurt pretty bad. I am kind of sick of this crappy week. I'm tired of trying to hang out with friends and get excuses on why not. If you have time for everyone else why not me? Hopefully it'll get better. Since I'm not sure what to write I'm going to give you a few excerpts out of a book I love called Drops Like Stars by Rob Bell

"Have you ever gotten angry enough in a conversation to say, "Do you want to know how I really feel?" the moment we say something like that, we reveal that up until now we weren't being entirely truthful. Now obviously, there may have been a good reason-knowing when and where to say what and how much is important. but sometimes there's a truth just below the surface that is, in fact, the real issue. And to get it out in the open, to talk about what really needs to be talked about, to stop pretending and posing and acting, we have to suffer.

Pain has a way of making us more honest. "

"The first Christians insisted that when Jesus died on the cross this wasn't just another execution by the Roman Empire. They believed this was the divine, in flesh and blood, hanging there on the cross, bloody, thirsty, suffering.

A god who is no somewhere else- remote detached distant- but among us feeling what we feel, aching how we ache. Suffering like us. Is the cross God's way of saying 'I know how you feel?' "

" We are going to suffer and it's going to shape us somehow. We will become bitter or better, closed or open, more ignorant or more aware, more or less, turned into a thousand upon thousands of gifts we are surrounded with every single moment of every single day. This too will shape me. The only question left is...how?"

I am tired and I'm really like the Pandora radio : ) Sometimes people are meant to be in our lives for a little bit....but why does it seem like that's most people down here in the south?

Yay it's Beatles Day!!!

This is very confusing...

"I won't run when it looks like lost, I can't spend another night alone regretting what I've done so I won't run...."-Needtobreathe

So what is that makes you have feelings for a person? There are so many other factors that play into a way a person may be attracted to you, or you attracted to them. I'm not sure I ever will find the answer to this question. But it's something that bothers me at times. Is it because they are into the same things that you are in? Could it be because they have a great smile? How do you know that the person you are falling for is really being true to themselves and not trying to change into someone else.

Then if someone likes you then why don't they tell you?!??! It's not like they are going to shoot you down. Rejection comes few and far between. So lets say there is a person out there that likes you, but has never really hung out with you? What is it that they see in you? Maybe the person they like is completely different outside of work....Then when you ask the person that likes you to hang out they don't even want to and give you excuses. It's rather confusing how everyone else in their life is able to hang out with them but no time for the person you like.

Sorry if this blog isn't making much sense to anyone, it really was me just getting things out of my head onto something tangible.

Tomorrow the new remastered edition of ALL the Beatles albums come out and I am pumped....who knows maybe I'll buy the whole collection on a whim and finance it through the best buy card for 18 months. Totally worth it for the Beatles. Rock band Beatles edition and the beatles it will be a wonderful day tomorrow.

ARGH!!!@!!!#W$!@#$!@#!@#!@#@#$%$%^&&*%$%@!#$~

this is ridiculous and stupid.....

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
If it’s a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything will be fine

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything
Everything will be fine
Everything

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything

Hold your own
And know your name
Go your own way

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own)
Are the things that make you panic (Know your name)
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)

Hold your own
Know your name
Go your own way.

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own)
Are the things that make you panic (Know your name)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine? (Go your own way)
Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own)
Hell no reason go on and scream (Know your name)
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold

Wow really?!?

I could understand if it was from someone else but never would I thought that my own family would say what they did tonight.... really makes me re-evaluate things, this sucks, hurts, and so many other words I can't even think of right now.

i'm not feeling good this no sleep is sucky.

Good golly House is getting good. Between House and Guitar Hero 5 what's the point of doing anything else....hehe just kidding. Tomorrow is my day off I've got stuff to do. I'm tired one more week left without my sleeping meds....hopefully I will make it

oh man am i exhausted but not getting any sleep. hopefully I can get my sleepwalking meds filled sooner rather than later like they said. Watching House and trying to fall asleep is what my day has been like. Oh and with a side of going to the dentist. Rather boring and relaxing day off.

you are going to move through this

More importantly, I love you. YOU ARE GOING TO MOVE THROUGH THIS.

Don't be defeated. Submit yourself to the process. You are growing. You are changing. You are doing LIFE.

I am not trying to make you feel better. This fucking hurts, and there are no two ways around it.

But I am trying to encourage you to not retreat. I can't remove the pain, but I am going to hold your hand while it hurts.

Continue to reach out. You need people right now.

I'm here for anything you need.

You are LOVED in ways you cannot imagine. In ways that don't depend on you. In ways that don't depend on your performance. In ways that cannot be lost. Remember Remember Remember.

Love you my friend.

- Anonymous