In time...

Some days ... the whole world seems upside down. And then somehow, and probably, and when you least expect it, the world rights itself again.

Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget.In life, only one thing is certain, apart from death and taxes. No matter how hard you try, no matter how good your intentions, you are going to make mistakes. You’re going to hurt people. You’re going to get hurt. And if you ever want to recover... there’s really only one thing you can say.

There comes a point in your life, when you’re officially an adult. Suddenly, you’re old enough to vote, drink and engage in other adult activities. Suddenly, people expect you to be responsible, serious, a grown-up. We get taller, we get older. But do we ever really grow up? In some ways we grow up; we have families... we get married, divorced... but for the most part we still have the same problems that we did when we were fifteen. No matter how much we grow taller, grow older, we are still forever stumbling... forever wondering, forever... young.

The truth is hard. The truth is awkward and very often the truth hurts. I mean, people think they want the truth. But do they really? The truth is painful. Deep down, nobody wants to hear it, especially when it hits close to home. Sometimes we tell the truth because the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to hear it for ourselves. And sometimes we tell the truth because we just can't help ourselves. Sometimes, we tell them because we owe them at least that much.

Change; we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But here's the truth: the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, just sometimes change is good. Oh, sometimes, change is ... everything.

I have had a lot running through my head and not a lot of a time to sit down and write. I'm working full time and also going to school full time. I'm taking things in as much as I can because change is coming, and it's happening faster than ever. I'm ready for this change, to be honest this place has gotten old. It's time for me to grow and see the world in a different view. I'm ready to start fresh, with a clean slate.

I have a puppy with 8 staples in her tummy from getting spade. She thinks nothing is wrong with her and running around and playing fetch is an okay thing. I had strict orders to keep her calm and with minimal physical activity from her vet. This is NOT an easy task. I feel bad because every time she comes out of the kennel she thinks she finally can play....nope not at all. So i have had to be the very mean mom and hold the ball and hide it while she sits waiting for it with the definition of puppy dog eyes. Ahh life.

But this is what I know for a fact.

• Lucy Abbey Road is my buddy and sidekick at all times which is great
• The neighbors next to me listen to the TV WAY too loud, I'm starting to think they are deaf
• The neighbors below me have a dog that barks at EVERYTHING. Oh and it looks like the target dog.
• I love my job and hate my job all at the same time.
• I have yet to let my managers know that I will be moving by the beginning of January to go to north carolina
• I know when people lie to me, and even more when people lie to others. I may not say anything, but I know. Karma is not fun to deal with, it's even worse when it come backs around.
• I am excited not to spend another tough winter here.
• I'm really excited to be with my family again and enjoy the weather that isn't bad at all.
• I'm going to miss a lot of people here and a lot of things that this state offers but...
• I know there are so many new things I'm going to fall in love with down south.
• I know I will be an Aunt any day now to Matty McFatty's little girl : )
• I know that everything will be fine.

"So long sweet summer, I stumbled upon you and gracefully basked in your rays."

I knew one day that this post would come. It's the post that I was trying to put off and avoid writing. I was thinking that if I didn't write it that it wouldn't come. Tomorrow will be my last and final day getting up, feeling nervous, and walking onto campus as a college student. That's right I am going to be graduating in December. I really don't like to deal with major life changing things, and December is going to be one of them. I really don't have a plan for what I'm doing when I'm done, where I am going. I feel like there is a ton of pressure to answer these questions. What if I just want to be for awhile? I think that's me, the procrastination is definitely kicking in. I don't want to step into the real world as an adult. But the time has come, posts of final things, final soccer games, yahtzee games, and final goodbyes.

I have always had an interesting time the night before classes started, even when I was little. I remember going shoe shopping for school and waiting until the first day of school. I would rock those running shoes all white and all. It's the anticipation for the friends and the normalcy. I've been going to school and getting the weird butterflies for 16 years of my life. That's a lot out of 22 years. So I'm hoping to make the best of every moment that happens and live up my last semester. I know there isn't going to be a bus to pick me up as a little kindergartener on the first day of school. My mom isn't going to make sure that everyone plays nice before the bus and she won't be there for me when I get off to ask me how my day was. It's all me this time, I just hope I can get on that bus on my own. It's time for me to have my own wings and fly.